NEXT 16 days

OK NEXT 16 days I WILL BE AT NEW  ZEALAND WOOOHOOOOOOO!

so ican't post or anything as much as i like to!!

I WILL MISS YOU ANONs and NONANONS LOLOLOL

be back in 16 dyas! meanwhile u can visit emilys blog or something

http://jaesbitch.livejournal.com with he japan update. since she should be back form japan!! WHOOPDEEDOOOO!

so check my blog again january the 10th or something! i think if i calculated right.

HAPPY HOLIDAYS! AND MERRY CHRISTMAS!

post me xmas/ new years messages. ill be very happy HAHA

I am totally gnna come back dumber, and tanner and shrivellier from all dat sun. might even take sum hot nz guys home with meh ;] LOL JOKES, gtta stay single for all those sexy male stalkers on my blog LOL JUS KIDDINNNGGG.

so many jokes today hehe mus be holiday mode really sinking in.

anywho! BYYYEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE. i hope myself a safe journey 8)

LOVE YOU ALL! XOXOXOOX <--- so gurly

hey bebehs

i was thinking

you know how in dreams, you are actually controlling your own actions although you are unaware your in a dream most of the time. and then when you wake up it kinda feels like you weren't controlling your actions.

well i was going on a walk in the park, and although i was aware i was walking down the pavement i wasn't aware i was in real life until i actually thought about it.

and i was thinking, you know maybe if you wake up from real life(AKA DIE LOL) you realize you weren't controlling your actions throught out ur life adn that everything was kinda determined.

i thought i could draw a parallel between them. BUT i hav no idea what the actual point of dis post is. so toodly doo

guess what i read out dis post to mah sis and she was like "WOW HOW DEEP" in a sarcastic voice. PSHT.

it was judst a thought yokleh

mine

WOO i jus woke up from a 4 hour nap, i am screweing up by biological clock. LOL I JUST TYPED BIOLOGICAL COCK BUT I CORRECTED IT TROLOLOL.

anywayz, i am now trying out the rap part for drummer boy. me and yvonne are gunna rap contest eachother HAHAH

drummer boy  - the one by justin biebs.

I havnt been posting lately coz im phat. it's already holidays brah! i havent done proper work since after exam LOL, not good!

ooh my mind is blank so post leterz BYE!

OHOHOHOH ! and i tried minecraft and i dislikes coz everyone on my server is already geared up. whilst their mining with their ultra pro tools, im digging holes in the ground iwht my hands. PSH

and also i tried to kill one of skynan's wolves, coz i was like ZOMG im gnna be sneaky and kill a dog(because i totes can) and make him devs forevs! but then the wolf ate me and i died.

anyways i call it quites ofr minecraft.

WAZZUURRRPPPP!

WASSUUPPPPP My HORMIES.

ITS BEEN A WHILE HASNT IT

I BET YOU NOTICED MY NON-PRESENCE? >D ? RIGHT? RIIIGHHHTT? RIIIIIIIIIGHHHHHHT?
HEHE

u know everytime i type a smiley ----------> : ) i feel like adding a fullstop ------------> : .) YOU KNOW HWY? because i myself possess a mole right on top of my mouth, so ya know the smiley is personalized!

AND im such a lazybum now, exams are over, so u know school is basically... over harharhar oh well im quite enjoying school now, i mean next exams are what next year!

WILL TORK MOAR LATERZ.

luvyerz

YESYESSYESYESYESYESYESYESEYSEYSEYSEYSEYSEYSSSSSSS

yes i am retarded sumtimez

a sad and frustrated post

WOW my eyes have gone considerably shittier from watching all dat anime i think. iunno, now i hafta fully lean into my computer to see clearly. ); i shall be more careful next time

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what i think:

1. just coz someone got a higher mark, they can still be saddend, coz i hear peeps goig” OMG HE/SHE GOT SO GOOD Y IS HE COMPLAINING THEY'RE SO INCONSIDERATE” a lot. 

2. can sadness be measured? if he answer is no, then we shouldn't say stuff like, "why are u sad HUH? african people are starving." well u see, sum1 may be of the same sadness as an African child, but because their conditions seem so much worse, that person's sadness is taken like its worth nothing. maybe i dunno what im talking bout coz im not an african child. 

3. Friday was a sad day.

4. a few weeks ago, randomly, ive noticed myself that ive become considerably less reserved. i dunno if thats the right way to put it, like ive been able to do whatever i want to do, like stuff i previously found uncomfortable to do, became easily doable. and it hasn't changed!! this new-found super care-free attitude which isn't neccesarily a good thanngg!

5.  OK MAYYNNNEE I HATE CERTAIN TYPES OF COMFORT although a comforters intention is good, i find sum sorts of comfort insincere. IN FACT, i would feel much better actually if u rubbed in my face that i screwed up the test.
and patting me gently on the back is not comfort (4 me) it annoys the shit out of me.<--it's a pet peeve. if the comfort is, "everything is gnna be okay" please go LOL i want not that comment. JUST ROAWR I JUST HATE HATE HATE HATE COMFORT. LEAVE ME ALONE!! oh and by comfort i mean only the overly-sympathetic kind of comfort, just say "DW it's only worth 2%" or smth, plz don't conjure a pretentious sympathetic/sad looking face when ur not actually SAD NOR SYMPATHETIC. AWRAWRAWRAWR AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH ARHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

OK bet u no one's gnna comfort me in school anymoar LOLZ

6. if my 4u maths mark is screwed, i am seriously going to get kicked out of 4u. if i pass 4u trial i will be eternally grateful. thats coz I got 42/63 for math. and i got like 50% for 2u multiple choice, i cheked da answers with others.

7. i sad coz i can't do anything aobut my shitty japanese mark.I swear i have already hindered my chance of getting a state ranking for jap continuers. wut a sad thing for me. u know because of the shitty jap continuers test maybe., jus maybe im gnna miss out like 0.05 in my atar and miss out on a course i want to do in a certain uni. i is disappoint. psh

8. scuse my swearing but FUCK IM SAAAAD.

And you know I have 12 units, 4 units got stuffed. Continuers jap and 3 u maths. 

ANYWAYS continuing with my japanese rant. DUDE i interpreted the question differently so i got like 0/3 marks, 0/3 marks AND 0/5 marks. and now im ranked last. (psst. i disliek w1l50n)

9. If you cry are you sadder?!


ok dw, my sadness will last 4 like a day, i will come to school forgetting bout all this LOL.

the music is like... music to my ears haha.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=262-LHt_d1k&feature=related

this guy is amazing. normally violin covers on youtube aint that GOOD.

herez another one if u liked the other one

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jBpxLsSn3CM&feature=related

LOL NARUTO SOOUND TRACKS I KNOW. TROLOLOLOL

moosic

OK. i was on the piano per usual.
I've decided to type properly this time, I remember Kynan telling me "I can't read your posts, it's like l33t"
And personally, l33t typing is annoying. So, for this post I shall stick to good grammar. It's just that I don't think that good grammar conveys emotion you know. It sounds like I'm speaking too formally.

Anyways, I'm feeling happy right now, since you guys can't deduce my emotion from this puuurrr-fect grammar. Shiz, ruined it LOL. Anyway, I was on the piano right, and I was like to myself:

Maybe I should try compose a simple song( PIANO PIECE)! Well I did, it sounds pretty alright in my opinion, but compared to normal songs, the structure is very basic, like (YES I DIDN'T TYPE "LIEK") the left hand plays broken chords and random repetitive background music whilst the right hand plays like single notes most of the time.

I composed a tiny bit of the song, I let my dad hear it and i was like WHAT TYPE OF SONG DOES IT SOUND LIKE. and he was like ... a love song AND I WAS LIKE I MUST HAVE COMPOSED A HELL OF A CORNY SONG. it was meant to be cool yaknow

BTW When I write, "I composed a song" it makes me sound fully pro LOL, gives me a professional touch i must say heeheheh anyways one day I'll post the song up, when i find some electronic that can record the song and hwen i find some connecty thing that can connect it to my computer TROLOLOL. anyway for now, back to naruuutoooo!

3UsUck3d

turns out i didn't do so well 4 math.ext1

mayne i sure hope they dont put me down to 2unit math OR kick me out of 4u,

OK i think i got the lowest score in my math class. like im pretty sure. but i thought i did alrite LOOOL.

guess i thought wrong agen.

OH GOSH. my 4u better be average. PUHLEZZZZZ! i wantz to continue doing 3u/4u math. zOMG. I DONT WANT TO FACE WOODY for the a millionth time. because ive already conversed with him about my maths like 3 times already. SO PUHHLLEZZZZ. i hope he doesn't so "HMM..." to my peaperrr.

this counts to hsc dammit, but im sure there are students who were super disappoint, and got really low marks for their standards. so those people cheer up! :) <--- herez a smiley.

but most people did good. which sux 4 me, HSC-rank-wise. OH WELL TOO LATE TROLOLOL.

bee-zerk.

DOES ANYONE HAV A HOUSE WITH A FLAT ROOF THAT U CAN LAY ON?

I NEED TO LIE ON A ROOF ONE DAY. LOL

i jus wanna sit on something high that looks over everything, that's not fully steep.so picky aint i.

like the building in our school. but sumwhere where u won't get suspended, or go to jail LOL.

and i also feel that ive become meaner over the exam week. so take no offense in little actions i may subconciously do.

4 u 4 me

OK im gnna say my last prayerz for 4u.

OK. ode to 4u (before i get kicked out. im so worreh....)

4 u this is 4 u
4 u i never knew u well
... even though IRONICALLY,
we spent hours together every day.
4 u i never understood u,
that's because the only time i tried to understand u was..
THE DAY B4 THE EXAM.
4 u puhlease tell w00dy that im good at doing u.

ZOMG. please let me pass this test. PLEASE AVERAGE. JUST AN AVERAGE WILL DO.

IT MEAN NO WORREH 4 THE RES OF UR DEIZ

GG. i can't even do half the questions in a 4u exam. GGGGGGG

can't get kicked out tho

no can do.

so gtta work... tommorow.

ANIME

OK ANIME I LOVE

ONE PIECE
NARUTO
BLEACH
 may i say that naruto sound tracks are freaking AMAZING. who ever made all those songs should pat them selves on the back. LOL a pat aint even good enuf. TOOOOO AMAZZINNG. ok im gnna bold naruto and make it colourful.

ONE PIECE was my fav anime, now it's become naruto. but that's only because i haven't watched/read one piece in ages. and coz im watching naruto NOW HEHE. if i start watching one piece agen i reckon id like it on par with naruto. and so is bleach. AND I FORGOT. fairy tail yes.LOVE THAT.

gosh i love anime

so are the soundtracks for code geass. they're fully epic.

ALSO!

i was just looking online at resses 4 random. and ZOMG
http://www.asos.com/au/Women/Curve---Sizes-20-26/Dresses/Cat/pgecategory.aspx?cid=9579

IS THIS THEIR CATEGORY FOR PLUS-SIZED DRESS? WTH?? the normal dresses they have r like ultra skinny. these so called "plus-sized " dresses are freaking normalll!
??

pshh.

anywyas back to fun and games

UH OH

It's 7pm now SHIZHIHSIIZ i took a 6 hour nap LOL. makes up for all the one hour - 4 hour nights i had 8DDD so now im side awake!

I FEEL GOOOOOOODDDD DUHNUHNUHNUHUHUU

AND TODAYS ENGLISH 3u. i cannot believe i finished it. i didnt finish 2 u )8 but it was dodgy finish. because i only had 2 paragraphs in my head when i got it. so i quite proud of myself.

now...  i just gtta wait for the marks! D8

I AM SCROOOWED

Ive just realized how i relieve stress. OK i start fidgeting heaps, and i cant keep still, then theres an accumulation of that "uncomforatble" feeling and i just can't stop feeling agitated.

THEN, GUESS WHAT

i go on to da piano, play sum random songs for like 5 minutes and then go back to work calmer.

ive jus realized, coz ive been stressing over english, so every 20 minutes or so, i go on to da piano and go play sum stuff. stress converts into music WOOPWOOP. and its not like im forcing myself to go, its just it feels RIGHT to do so, instinctual i gugess.

SHIZ BCK TO 3u fufufufufuufuf

ON FIIIRREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!

oklehs i am now starting 3u essay. WOOO

cheer me on x) heeeeeeeeeeehee

will post a great post after english when theres the weekends to kill timeeeeeeee and prepare for 4unit LOLZ and modern history don't forget.

DELUXE

on a happier note, me and my dad went to this nice sushi place in carlo court yesterday. WE ATE ramen +this delux dinner box WOOOOO!! DELUXE BRAH. DELUUXXEE! dude it was 25 bucks. OK normally the food we order is like less than ten bucks. because all the food we happen to like, 4 sum reason falls under 10 bucls, like u know asian noodles, fried rice and stuff. SO when dad was like

"JULIA, LETS GET THE DELUXE"
i woz like

"HELLYYY EAAAHHHHH" whilst my heart ached a little because it's his money, kinda feel bad because i havent earnt a single cent. and also because 25 bucks is like 1.5 weeks school lunch moneyzzz. ANYWAY

WOOO, freaking delicious. they had those tempura tihngos. YUM YUM YUM YUM and other stuff like eel, salmon BLAH

anyways i felt like a rich person WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

OK ANYWAYS mebbe i should go do work now OLLOLOL SEE YAS!

BELONGINGS

OK i slept like 1 hour for 2u english exam so wen i came home today i napped for like um LOL embarasing to say but like 4-5hours, its like 5 30 now. wut the and im still not really awake. but i forced myself up. LEMME TALK ABOUT ENGLISH EXAM. ok im so non-smart!!

DOOOOD, i didnt finish any paragraph of my essay cept conclusion, i was skipping around. OK INTRO. i wrote half and decided to continue with it later so i would have a better idea of what i was talking about by writing my body paragraphs. but i never went back, i was too slow. so i havent established a thesis really. like, and all my sentences were cut off.

I have 4 body paragraphs in total. i don't have endings for any of them, like the  ending sentence to sum everything up. my last body paragph trailed off 3/4 of the way because they were like pens down. BUT i wrote my conclusion fully. and it kind of answered the question.

the question was : the desire to belong is complex, how is it expressed through BLAHABALHA.
well i couldn't adapt my ideas properly because my ideas weren't about the desire to belong but rather. TO BELONG, THERE ARE BARRIERS. yeesh.

after exam this morning, i felt id do alright despite not completing da essay, but after typing this all out. SHIZ. i seriously hope i get 17  or 18+. PLEASEPLASEPLASE. LOL

and my  level of language deteriorated in the essay, started with nice eloquent, intelligible sentences, with nice verbs and adjectives and vocab in general. then turned out to be like "BECAUSE HE CAN'T BELONG TO PLACE HE CAN"T BELONG AND THAT MEANS NO CONTENTMENT"

OH MY GOSH.

JOOCY

if posible, i would like to enlarge the fruit, blueberry by 20 times, how succulent would the blueberry then BE YMUMIUMUUM!!

ENTERTAINMENT CANDDYY!

hope everything i wrote made sense

post dedicated to people who are still reading through blogs when exams are so close. (like myself LOL)

time of year where everyone's like "IM SO SCREWED" + an extra, "AND EVERYTHING ACTUALLY COUNTS NOW"

SO TRUE

GGGGGG.

my minds occupied with 80% naruto 20% exam shiz, so i haf no cool infos to share. maybe after exams when i feel calmer.

ALSO, i would like to mention that. i feel screwed. OH no shiz, but everyone is feeling screwed. even the seemingly prepared people. ok even though i haven't finished my 2u essay and i havnt started my 3u essay (it's not as bad as it sounds!) and math.. and jap, i reckon sum1 in the grade who has finished all thier essays and shiz feels worse off than me.

ANYWAYS. I AM INDEED more screwed than ever. sum1's gtta find a synonym for that word. also, people are telling me that im screwed. like ultra. and the people who have been telling me that aren't the fully prepared people, they're also the last minuters.

this + steeles condescending tone, "JULIA, ur the biggest procrastinaor ive ever met" + "JULIA, is this only half an essay?" (coz i handed in like 2 paragraphs lol and everyone else handed in like a fiull essay) MAKES ME REALIZE THAT MAYBE MY FEELIGNS OF SCREWEDNESS actually articulate my situation here.

THIS IS SEIROUS MAYNE. but i still feel calm ish.

PS: sometimes, i tihnk that if i post everything on this blog, ill run out of things to say in real life.
lOLOLOL

breeeefth

I have finally started my belonging essay.
and i! am proud of myself *proudface* im like fulyl smiling whilst doing ym essay, coz im so happy im progressing, i think my monitor is freaking out at my face.

TROLOOLOLOOLOL


and my post title is a cross between "brief" and "breathe"
it's conveyed meaning is, that this post is brief and that i should breathe, from any stress i hav 8D

TWISTED

http://www.jillstanek.com/miscarriage/cruel-hoax.html

);

wolfs rain

today. the clouds were cool.

there were many layers

different shades

different overlaps

and they covered the whole sky

and there was depth to it.

so they were coolehz taboolehz

STOP COMPLAINGING. START WORKING YA USLESS FAILURE OF A DAUGHTER

CUT OFF

since im wasting time anyway, i might as well blog in jap.

kyou wa mudadato omounda. itsumo, watashiwa nandemonai wo shiteirudakedo shukudai to hokano koto wo benkyou ga oosugiruno.

HSC (lololololololol only part non jap peeps understnad) wa sukunai shuukan mae hajimarunode, mada bakadadadadadadadaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa - - - -- -

watashiwa naratta kotoba wa "koumon" dake. kanashii?

hai. kanashisugiru.

BYE. work sux.

maths is kirai

i am totemo stuffed. watashiwa KNEW that my warui study habits would carry on to jyuuni nensei.

I KNEW IT I KNEW IT I KNEW IT!!

last term, i was like: I WILL DO MY WORK. i will get my work and finish it on the day. and it wasn't just talk. it was talk that would be fulfilled. AND I KNEW i would do my work. andi did improve.
BUT ALSO, i knew rationally logically thatmy last minute habit that i have had for my entire life, couldn't be changed so easily, and that as much as i knew i would DO MY WORK ON TIME ON TIME ON TIME!!!. i knew that i wouldn't because of my life-long unchanged bad study behavior. and my prediction is correct.

mada last-minuter.

eff. my life is gnna turn out to be

UH OH

ms 5+331 LOL has told me through out the year that im the biggest procrastinator that she's even met.

and i was like oh shiz.

i thought that everyone was as procrastinaty as me but apparently not. like a teacher saying it gives it a whole new level of legitimacy UH OH

YESSSSS. NOOOOOOO!

THe cool news is when my family and i was at the checkout in Aldi, the counter guy told us to open our bags to chek if therez any stole ngood. s

o we did and he saw sheets of paper and books and he's like "oh, homework i see" and then we laffed coz i think we both thought of the asian stereotype.

anyway suddenly he's like, "12 times 12" and im like "ONE FOUR FOUR" and then he's like "13 squared?" i woz like "ONE SIX NINE"

and he looks at my sister and says, "15 times 15" and my sis is like "twohundred and twenty five" and he looks back at me and says, "14 times 14" and im like "196" and then he's like "GOOD u know ur stuff" and im like LOLSAODLOASLDOLOL


AND GUESS WHAT?

AGES AGO I LOST MY PETER SKRZYNECKI BOOKLET OF POEMS + MY WRITTEN ANALYSIS IN IT FORM DA TEACHER.

SO PREVIOUSLY, I HAD TO COPY SOMEONE ELSES NOTES FROM THE TEACHER. YOU KNOW HOW MUCH STUFF THERE IS TO COPY.

AND NOW, IVE LSOT IT AGAIN. ARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRHGHGHGGHGHGHGH
 IMGNNA CRY SOME IMAGINARY TEARS NWO DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD;;DF;VFD:G:fdG:fdFDSAJONVDS

linky stuff

normality causes boredom, boredom is caused by fear. fear prevents interestingness which means ur life is constant and unchanging. WOOP. i think dat makes sense 8D

and i rather like dis quote, "Stop accepting things as they are, even if they suck."


in a different font to emphasize it ;]

):)

ZOMG THE MOMENT I FINISHED posting my last post, i didn't really like it, jeebus isn't the poster meant to like their posts.

whenever i read back at stuff I've written years ago, i always say to myself, "woah was i like that?" because you get a bad impression of yourself sometimes. But I've read over something I've written less than ten minutes ago, and I just don't feel satisfied with it, because I'm left with a retarded impression. in fact i reckon everything i write is very immature/naive.

end of story. )< im sad now LOL

strain of thought

i think your day is very much determined by urself.

if u wanna hava good day, i reckon u should be happy

because if ur happy, your "state of mind" is in sync with others. by this, i just mean, you can connect on the same emotional level and be happpy togetharr. coz if ur sad, chances r no ones gonna want to really talk to you(sum1 will ofc, out of kindness psst + friends that care) but i reckon they're not gonna really understand anything, they're just gnna be like "ooh everythings gnna be alrite..!!" whilst patting yo sadness incarnate on the back and thinking, "i wanna hve sum fun now instead"

i mean if ur sad, sure u get attention. burrt, due to everyones similar "happy-state-of-mind", they can't really understand u and they will get bored. (maybe thats just da evil me sumtimes. >D)

so just leave da sadness to urself, bottle it up and cry urself to sleep at night. LOL (jus kidding, iunno)

also, i reckon ur mood/state of mind can affect ur body language, even the tiniest movement oculd indicate repellence. rather than welcomence (and this is why my english sucks, i can never find the right word), and thats why we all should maintain a nice, comfortable and happy state of mind. 8)

i also believe when people read other peoples blogs, they shouldn't take what people say and make assumptions on that person. if someone makes an offensive post, they probably didn't mean to, or they did so out of their angry selves. so just be nonchalant bout it, subconciously judge them whilst conciously trying to understand that from their POV, they think they are doing the 'right' thing at the 'right' moment.

speaking of nonchalance. i also believe i have been nonchalant a lot lately. half this nonchalance is "I CEEBS" and the other half is i feel kinda emotionally reactionless. if dat makes sense. a long time ago, i walk down a corridor, i was full of excitement, zomg, is anyone gnna come from the other side? is it gnna be LOLawkward/funny? am i gnna engage in cool convos if i meet someone alogn the way?!. now i walk thru the school with normallifying-tinted glasses. everythings so normal.

im so familiar with my environment, that i feel meh bout everything. but u know what, the meh-ness of everything right now is self-caused. so it's my fault im feeling da mehness. because im being in a meh-state-of-mind, i eminate body language that shows my disinterestness which repells happy people. i think. HA

thats why change is good. and speaking of change (LOL im just going on and on!) i wanted to make a post on that a month ago, but all the stuff i wanted/needed to say just slipped away. so moral is: if u think of smth cool, type it down immed!

next post, i will articulate everything in proper grammar. coz this post's grammar, is rubbish.

need weed seed freed creed

HEY ITS BEEN A WHILE SINCE I POSTED bout mah biackyard

remember my talk about my backyard. WELL ZED OH EMM JEE (Z-O-M-G)

it is fully grassy now weird, still a bit blotchy tho. when it used to be half barren.

also i dont think ive told u guys bout this but i planted a flower seedling into the ground, i marked it's spot. something grew out of that spot, we thought it was the flower plant but it turned out to be a weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeed. LIKE did i plant a weed seed?

i nEEd no fEEd water to da wEEd sEEd. LOL rhymed.

ALWAYS

i think i love my dad more than i think i do.

:)

i will be more nice to him coz he's cool and deserves it. and mum as well ofc.

and i will post another post at a later date. my mind is quite the blank

DUN GEDDIT.

IDONTGETMATHS
I DONT GET MATHSARGH

I DONT GET IT, I DONT EVEN GET MY TUTOR MATH CANT DO DA QUESTIONS. I DONT UNDERSTAND THE CONCEPT.THEORY, I DONT GET THE QUESTIONS, I DONT GET WHY WE ARE LEARNING IT, I DON'T GET THE LOGIC IN MATH. I DONT GET HOW I DON'T GET IT. I DONT GET HOW OTHER POEPLE GET IT. Y I SO DUMDUM. it must feel good to get stuff
ZOMG, )8 and i hav so many holes in my math knowledge itz kinda sad.

and all of dis is a result of my fuking lack of organization. and i know that one day that's gnna be the cause of my misfortune.FUQ

I SHO DEEP.

i wonder how many people i will know closely in meh life.

i unno until just a few days i ago, when i think of the future, i only see the end(which means, death LOL) . like i only see everything as temporary, non-lasting since we r all gnna Y'know. i/u/we all know that but until only a few days ago ive continuously become concious of dat.

UNO Y?

i think it's coz its dat time of year yayer where ur all like, AYYE what should i do in da future. ETC. must be da reason why.

anyway, on a happier note.

tomorow is multicultural food fair WOHOHOOO!!. my team will be selling thai curry + thai rice yes. not just any ole rice. AND IM NOT MAKING DA CURRY. catherine IS. so tastiness is not guaranteed >) LOOLOL. jokes it should be nice! okokok well then see you all at our stall heeeeeheeeeeeeeeeeee! and oh yes we r doing curry dancing so come and watch! recess under sails. a bit late telling u guys now. 

shinichiroo no kutsu no sokonimo aburamushiiii

shinichiro no kokoro no sokoni wa yuasa hiiromii

ive just finished watching dis anime. haha 8)

TALKING ABOUT NONSENSICS

we read peter skryznecki's poem called ancestors today.
it's quite the saddening.

it's a vague poem, but it reminded me of the insignificance of being human sometimes.
i mean, no one remembers my great grandma, grandpa and the people before them.

the earliest member of my ancestry i can trace back to is my grandmother, and it's too late to ask her if she could tell me about her granfather, or if she could tell me about what her grandfather told her about his grandfather.

their just beings who existed. but we just never knew what they were. they're like the poem said, "faceless"

i mean, they once lived a life too, once thought about there "faceless" ancestors and how their descendants (me) would never remember them/never ever know them. similar to how my descendents, if i will ever have any, will never know who i was. i wouldn't be anything meaningful to them, like how my ancestors right now aren't exactly meaningful to me as much as i want/they want themselves to be. i won't be real to them, just another person in history. (cept i wont be in history books)

OK I HOPE THIS ANALOGY HELPS. it like how we all view historical figures. think of one. hitler maybe? u think of him like u think of a character in a novel right. (mebbe that's just me) u don't think of him as a person, like ur dad or something. OK I FAIL. moving on

saddening aye

i also think that, humans are pretty sad people(SUMTIMES) they like to talk bout sad things, because iunno! it;s part of the... HUMAN CONDITION TROLOLOLOL.

but i don't think being sad is bad, it's just that a ltot of the time, it gets on peoples nerves because some sad posts are like. "YO THERE> YEAH YOU, just GET OVER EET!" NOW PLEASE1!!"

and sometimes, sad posts are very corny and unoriginal (eg. u broke my heart") but so what.
but so what if their corny.

is corniness uncool?
 i don't think so, no one else does right? coz thats the vibe im getting.

it' would be good if peeps don't say if something is corny or not(haha violation of universal declaration of human rights article... freedom of speech). a phrase like, "it's so corny" normally has negative connotations (from what i hear)  so what if someone plays/sings some heartbreaking, whiny, overplayed boohoo song. yeah it's corny. but it's still beautiful! sad songs articulate one's soul. LOL dunno what that means. the words sounded nice spoken in my head.

i hav lost my train of thought.

PS. what i have sed may not be right. opinion depends on mood and my mood now will change.
BYE! haha

LOVE JULIA

daily life

9:30 now, havnt started work but dats coz i had st johns ambulance cadet thing.

ANYWAYz
today i realized what makes me angry.
that's when a promise is broken. BUT not just any ole promise. can't explain which ones tho. but anyway cool info.

also today i went to connors, and asked connors if i could interview year 7s and got offered da job on da spot. LOL I MAK IT SOUND SO PRO. lol im dramatizing it, basically i asked if i could volunteer and she was like sure. LOL
HA ABBIRAAMIII!! she sed it was too late, and there was no point asking. >DDDD

NEVER TRY, NEVER KNOW.ehehe

and also, if uve noticed my inactivity, well i have 3 blogpost drafts, like after typing 90% of it up, i decided i wasn't gnna post it. so ... explains why ive been inactive.

HEEHAWHWAHWAHWWH

these days is a combination of amusedness, and procrastination. D8

will get to work.and these days, my brain isn't filled with stuff, so i don't think much or talk much. DO MUCH.

hehe

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8D

pictures worth a thousand words

so here's one to make up for my lack of words -------------->  :-)

CUT-SHORT

WHAT I LOVE ABOUT HUMANS IS HOW THEY CAN BE SO SWEETENING SUMTIMES.

scuse my grammar and end of thought process hah!

DROOLZ

today ive learnt

: whatever the result duznt matter, as long as u enjoyed the pathway towards it.

ALSO, does anyone have any liek really good stuff they've learnt? like shaaare da knowledge. coz i dont wanna be finding important sutff out like 20 years later. 8) type in da COMMENTs pl0x?


inb4 no comments

annd

inb4 awkward turtle swims by 8D

hentai ni hantai suru!! TROLOLOL

lost of blog posts r depressing. SO! i decided to brighten up mine a bit. changed my blog title to
HAPPINESSISNOWHERE. which accroding to charmaine, can be interpreted as either "happiness is now here" or "happiness is no where" i thought that was clever!

also, i have now a happy blogskin, it toook me ages!i ceebs getting a better skin FOR NOW.

and today, i peopel asked, how do u have time to blog, i guess that's true aye, should be doing other stuff!

anywayz! have a great day!

ps. disliek that blank space on the rightt!!

UNEDITED

i wanted to typ a post about my really bad habit i hav acquired since year7 in regards to study. but  then i thought ive posted enuf about that. but then i thought to myself. what's the point of saying something like that? annd i couldn't tihnk of a point, so i decided to write about something else.

rememba how i was gnna post about how i picture my life.

well ive been blitzing everything, OC class, i JUST managed to get in to greenacre. then in year 6, i found out i made it into sydney girls. and i was disappointed, coz my parents WERE, lol emotions r contagious yaknow. anyways it's coz my sis made NSG, so i am expected to make it as well, or above. i don't really mind what people expect of me, but it's just that i actually wanted to get into nsg myself and be like BULLYAHR. anyways, so i have this prediction that my hsc, will turn out to be high 98's or low 99s, and im being quite generous to myself here. ACTUALLY, when i talk about how my life will turn out, i don't really think about atar estimates, i just think about how i will change emotionally, spatially.

like i wonder, if ill ever hit a point in life when i suddenly realize something, u know. like DUDE im afraid im gnna realize something crucial to my life, when im 40 or something, when i couldve realised it and changed my life when i was 16 yaknow.

i wonder if ill have a mid-life crisis LOLOLOLOL. i wonder who ill meet in the future. coz id like to meet someone SUPER interesting/cool/daring. LOL im just waiting for someone to come along and suddenly make my life ten times more exciting. (coz im lazy haha)

UM YES! i wonder if ill still be in australia. if im still gnna be in da house im in right now! 

THO PARADOXICALLY, like i said before somewhere sometime, i can't even imagine my life past 2012. like nothing exist after 2012 (OOH!) 

LOL ive lost track of what i was talking about. err. 

this post requires too much thinking, but im gnna try aim for 99.7, coz i liek dat number. right now im on 98.3 which isn't what id like for hsc but im meh bout it right now. i wonder what it feels like to get 99.3+. does it feel good??? ayee? from a 99.3+'s perspective, i reckon 98.3 is a low mark(no shiz sherlok)

ok!

anyway i will be lazy no more and do work!!! BUT I CAN'T GUARANTEE IT. GG LOLOLOLOL

OH EM JEEBUS !!!

Omg.

I can sense myself already working less productive. im always the most productive first few days of school then it goes downwards from there. I CAN SENSE i am at the point just b4 i start to not do my work

NO! NOT GOOD. NOT GOOD AT ALL. COZ u see everything counts in HSC. i cant just relax like that and take a chillzpillz!

AND as i am posting now, im only JUST starting to feel guilty, like ive stopped being REALLY productive friday last week+weekends. the guilt is delayed by like a few days, so now it's getting to me. by the time the guilt overcomes me, it would already have been impossible for me to catch up on everything easily b4 assessments.

ZOH MY GOSH. even i know when im being a usless doll. LOL DOLL

I DUNO IF GUILT IS EVEN DA RIGHT WORD.

AND VENTING THIS HERE AIN'T GNNA HELP ANYTHING.

TROLOLOLOOL

EEEEEEK. imagine a crazy woman with hair flying everywhere and shocked face sitting behind my comp, yar thaz me.

julia facts!

remember i sed i was gnna make a coool post, well yeah the ideas are still loading in my head. like ive still not thought out how im gnna say explain in in proper english. LOL so ill postpone that 4 later. aka, im procrastinating.

anywayz!

emily posted something about how she thinks her life will turn out. excuse meh 4 being unoriginal because im gnna do the same..
....
...
in the NEXT POST lol. I just remembered i hafta do my maths HAHAzomg

quickly wanna add that.
i think im such an optimistic person. no joke! (98% of the time)

like i reckon that i believe in my self too much if that's the right way to say it. it's pretty funny actualyl BAHAH

For example, on the day when our grade was getting awards for people who got 99.3 atar above. like by LOGICALLY DEDUCTION, i wouldn't get an ward, BUT! omg, i don't know why i do this but, somewhere in my head im so sure im gonna get it! like the 100% attendance award as well. i don't know if optimistic is even the right word but, ive been away! ive been late! but somewhere in the back of my head, somethings telling me, "hey joolz, i think u just might get that award" maybe because the office didnt record ur late days accidentally, maybe the teacher marked ur name off the roll when u weren't there, accidentally! MAYBE magically, im an exception to logic!

OK more examples. i go into the economics prelim exam, (ok we need to know chapters 1-12, i only know up to 6 but i havent revised over it since half yearlies and VERYVERYVERY vaguely the rest), ok well obviously i didn't turn out with a very great mark. but i swear that before we got the papers back, when the teacher said, "Ill tell you guys who came first?" EVEN THOUGH i KNOW it's not me. actually "know" isn't the right word. even though through LOGICAL ANALYSIS it isn't me!, somehow, something in my head tells me ZOMG julia it might be u!

anyways i think u guys get the point.

whaz right about me?

When a clock is hungry it goes back four seconds. BROLOLOLOL

TODAY I WOZ EATING BEEF.

that didn't look like beef, looked like something that belonged to the innards of a cow, anyways it was beef. BUT it reminded me of all the weird foodz in the world!

LIKE ERM

DUCK HEADS. yes you eat that, apparently the tongue is a delicacy. *suprised face*

FROG LEGS? never tried those but all i can imagine are these thin wiggly legs *I SHIVERS*

i reckon some foods u can't eat not because it tastes bad, but coz the thought of eating something like that puts u off a tiny bit.

LIKE ESCARGOTS, during that musical dinner, i had other meat ofc! but jenny had escargot, she gave me one to eat! i took da snaily thing out, which in my opinion was kinda sad coz ur pulling da poor snail out of its homely shell. it still had its little antennae thingemabobs. and i put it in my mouth and the moment it touched my tongue it fell out of mouth(coz my mouth rejected it IT WASNT ME i swear!!) coz it was so tender and squishy, i imagined a real snail within!. BUT NONETHELESS, i ate the escargot. without chewing LOL just couldn't make myself savour the body of a snail.

i ate it anyway coz i forced myself. i was like ONCE IN A LIFE THING gtta do eet!

ANOTHER WEIRD food is monkey brains, ok i would nevverrr eat that coz u can only eat it by torchuring the monkey(altho im a bit hypocritical because i eat animals such as pigs, cows who may go through animal cruelty)

OK but let me keep talking about meat from a non-ethical perspective!
SO TODAY!

i went into a restaurant, and there was fried noodles with OX TONGUE.on the menu! sorray but im imagining a plate of normal spaghetti, with brown human-like flip floppy tongues on the dish here. DOES anyone eat that? it may taste nice, but doesn't the thought of eating an ox tongue not bother u at all! :O LIKE THERE ANOTHER TONGUE IN UR MOUTH!

how about bull testicles? i dunno about u guys but personalyl I COULD nevverrr stand the thought of having animal balls in my mouth.

NOT meaning to offend anyone who eats these kinda things.! its just that the thought of eating the thing really repels me! :O

and no pics showing da images. just incase my dad thinks im weird LOL

wishful thinking

ah duznt wutever time i get home, i end up doing work after dinner.

unfortunately, my film (which i thought was ambiguous) it's called max and mary was sed to be  "overdone" according to Ms Steel. and my other related text, this neighbours short story was also i quote, "commonly done" so miss is like "do something else." now ive gtta find more related texts. and i had put all my faith into my chosen texts already, thought they were good and uncommon. )8

and today i sat next to <person> in <subject> class today woohoooo! LOLOL anyways she was writing up this proposal thing for src. and i couldn't help but think to myself, she lives on another more exciting platform. i bet she sees school differently in a way i can't understand. from my  unimportant perspective, things are bland right now. school is same (sibilance thar) unchanging, i go to class, everythings the same, always the same. i go home, do the same things. (ok i know everyonez kinda ilek dis) but i can't help but think that she sees the school totally different.

MAYne im like a background character in movies, those people who aren't part of the action/story. like those movies where a few school students discover something and from there on their lives change! and im just like the people who don't know anything but keep going on with my unchanging life. YO get meh.

im not exactly bored, things are still fun! but i feel like ive zoned out/ less aware at school. like my awareness crept back into my head. HEy! that makes sense doesn't it! it's a physical "kibun" LOL jap dere.

 except for those few moments when im laffing my ass off at something HAHa!

anyway today i was also sitting next to clarence in my free, and he was doing his jap study. he doesn't even follow the course, he's far ahead, it makes me feel un-pro. BUT! it's good encouragement i guess. psst. imma beat him when da time comes LOL maybe like in another 1000 years.

next post i have something interesting to share!

Random notes to self
-state of mind
-change
-special

agitated

ARGHARGH fuck fuckityfukfufkufkufk FUUUFUFUUFUUUUFUFUUUFUUFUFUFUU

MATHS. you know when you get a question wrong and u keep checking ur working over and everythings correect, u can't find anything wrong. but the answer u get is wrong.

WELL YEAH FUARR this question in 16 c yellow fitz. DUDE SOOO irritatin. because for a straight 45mins mintues i thought 64 divided by 6 is 6 coz i avidly believed that 6 x 6 is 36. I WAS LIKE INSPECTING MY WORKING OUT like evevrythngg, reworking, pondering suttfz FOR LIKE 45 mins straight. ARGH until i asked my sister. FUARAR

FWOOOOOOO all this steam(aka rage) on maths has been building up.

45 minutes, i couldve dun other useful STUFFF. watch two episodes of anime.

SHIZZZAR.

O_o

OOOOHHHHHMMMMMYYGOOSHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

II REALLLY WANNA GO JAPPPANNNN.

O_________________________________O

CLARENCE AND SIDDO IS GOINGGGG. ))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))*88

I WANNA GO TOOOO!!!! I WANNA GOOOO! i really wanna seee JAPANNNNn!!!

im such a sook. if dats a word LOL HAHAH

IF YOU'RE READING MY BLOG NOW,

WATASHI TO NIHON NI KIMASENKA?

PLEASEPLSASE. im gnna end up going japan when im likeeeeeee twenty something. but i wanna go whilst in my teen years )8 aw.

AIM

YA'll blogsurfers/readers/stalkers LOL kidding!

lemme just tell you what my blog is for. ok it may seem obvious but ill just tell ya'll all.

THE HISTORY OF MEH BLOG
at first it was purely japanese. to practise my japanese. Then it became half english and half jap. Now it's full english (sometimes jap: when im in the mood) and i make sure that i don't post about everyday life. because everyday life is quite the norm for me! unless something BIIIIG happens like it could be a formal, a random unexpected event that took me by surprise.

ALSO 55% of the time, i take in mind theres an audience to read it. the other 45% i write whatever is on my mind. because i don't take into account an audience, aka im pretending that no one is gnna read it because im concentrating so hard to put my thoughts into words that i choose to type in whatever way i want.(so i might sound TOO <insert adjective>

SO end story is. my blog is there for me to type up ANYTHHINNNGG and whatever i think is fascinating/cool!! and a lot of the time i don't edit my stuff, so things may come across a certain way.

anyways whilst blogging yaerr.I will hopefully engage my VIPz/readers YAY.

simply because, there happen to be people who read my blog AHAHHA (automatic obligation to not bore them out)

im done. 8)

EXPLORING MYSELF

k sumtimes i do loads of work  and then afterwards im like. what am i doing this for? whats the point!!! and i start to get off track and think. DUDE im wasting my time doing all this work when i could be... doing something else..YEAH! coz lifes too short. and then i start thinking: ZOMG what is my life's purpose.

WOW im so original. anyways then i start thinking more specifically: in my assumed 80 years of my life, what should i do/experience b4 i oficially don't get to experience life anymore. RIGHTE? and then i think, EVEN THOUGH IT MIGHT Not BE TRUE, that im wasting my life doing all this homework. can't i be doing something funner/cooler! that's why my personality is what it is(weeeeeirrd perhapz). it's coz i wanna do a lot of stuff(i don't care if it's weird/awkward/retarded) as long as it aint exactly harmful to others because whatever happens is part of my oh-so wholesome experience of living. >D

OK gtta have a moral in this. just remember to make ur experience the best it possibly can be by doing stuff you want to do but normally wouldnt! 8D

BYE BYE!
BAHAHHAHAAAHSDASODH WHO THINKS MY POST TITLE HAS DIRTY CONNOTATIONS?

lots of stuffs

ZOMG LOL my sister has 17 followers!! surprizze. HOW? i thought i was the popularest!

anywayz. internetz gon be gone in 30 minutes so ill type up whatever quickly!

firstly can't wait until tommorow! we'll be on a boat, on the sea! haven't been on a boat since ages! so thats gnna be very exciting! WOOOHOHOOOOO

what else. OH YEAH i still don't have an outfit plan, but thaz alrite coz i look good in whatever i wear. RIGHTT? haha.

OH and yes i have come up with a new realization. every so often, something in me clicks and i realize something! OLOL, and liek its nothing clever either (as much as id liek it to be) it's something obvious HHAA!.

anyway here goes!!

WAIT B4 i go on SORRY HAHA. i would like to say that.. I told my sister my ya know.. realization. and i was oh so excited right! i was like woohoo im the only one that knows this. im sho coooool. BUT NO. my sister bat me right down with her harsh words. "didn't u know that already?"
ANYWAYS continuing

ive realized that people can only reveal their true forms? when placed under a certain environment/circumstance. so lemme expand.. when i say true forms i mean hidden attributes we wouldn't normally see, or qualities that don't surface unless u activate it with something. this could mean... generosity ETCETC!!

anyway so the outstanding people of today are outstanding(in personality) because they are in the right environment, and this environment is the reality you are in right now. and to fit well into this environment, is decided by chance i guess. so therefore unfortunately, some people in this world can't really show their awesomeness because they don't do awesome in this particular world we live in today. like maybe if they lived in a world where there was a zombie apocalypse, they would stand out and do awesome stuffz, but since unluckily, they're not. they can only remain their whatever(quiet/discreet) selves.

im saying this generally, im not taking into account stuff like people can change themselves etc. but anyways. yeah i thought that was a cool thought!!!

(H)

haha >)

)} : mustachie man.

u know ive just been reading emily's blog. YES YOU EMILY. hheheeee anyways reminded me of how i feeeel!

like how not doing work creates guilt!!
that's so true! the guilt that has been accumulating over the whole holidays from being a lazyass is drilling a beeee-g hole through me..... in fact! the fact that ive never been doing any real fully-serious study since..never is making me feel the bad feeling you feel when feel like a no-purposed living entity. scuse my sucky language here.

im feeling so guilty that, when i do get work done, it's jus feels liek heaven. emotional happiness converts into physical energy and im just liek jumping round in joy. LOlz

anyways. WHAAZZZZAPPP!

am i losing my undestandability?

i am up to episode 300+ for bleach. and i started at like episode 118 after prelims ended. that's how i waste my time.

anyways. apart from being extra extraordinarily lazy/dumb/usless/unproductive during holidays. i like how i get to do whatever, whenever, however. LOL like i can sleep in etc. anwyay

being a person who is EXTREMELY experienced in love(not) i hav come up with this theory!! ok alal ears please.

if someone has a crush on someoneelse. then the chances of the other person liking back are pretty high. ok i tihnk this because if you've set your eyes on someone, you like them because of their looks, personality and they're your type.

LOL -mind blank for 5 minutes- in real life

wait how should i go about explaining this. you know how couples look alike. ish? well lets say you find someone attractive and others don't, there is a reason u find them attractive. like because they are similar to you? because there's something there that says that if you find their personality clicks with urs, they'd probably find ur personality very compatible.

i cant explain the mechanism that causes this to happen. ahwelz

do i make sense . even A LITTLE HAR?

good thing i hav this blog. if i nevar try to articulate my thoughts, i'll end up geetting worse at expressing myself LOLLz.

ANYWAY. i might try explain that better at a later date.

NOW im gnna talk bout bleach because ive been watching heaps of it. spoilerz ahead

ICHIMARU GIN. he's the guy who from little, tries to protect matsumoto, this girl. but to do that he betrays heaps of people, and murders many.

he's like a heartless/sly/evil guy on the surface but he's actually just a person who's trying tooooooooooooooooo protecttttttttttttt his own friennd.

ULQUIORRA.

he's this bad guy in the film. but he'z cool

he's the embodiment of someone who feels hollow. like anything he cannot see, he thinks does not exist. so naturally, he doesn't get what a hearrt adn a soul(figuratively means) he dies too

coolehz im done.

lol jus shows how addictive this bleach anime is. 

SKYYYYY

yesterday i spent a looong time watching youtube vids of sky diving.

MAYNNNNE, gtta sky dive one day. SOMEONEZ GTTA DO IT WITH ME? any takers? so i don't die in solitude. LOLOLAOSDLOL how evil am i.

it's ahh-mazing. i feel scared for the people, coz all the video shows the plane opening the door, and they're like fully 10 000ft above ground and you can see the peninsular beneath them and its like FFFWOAH. (the use of "fff" in "fffwoah" represents the sound of the wind against ur ears whilst in the sky) and then they jump and ur like, sheez they're free falling. it looks kinda suicidal LOL.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lDBrdl2sZWs
WATCH. words cannot describe. and that guy is crazy. he's got biiiigg guts.

APPARENTLY, first few seconds feels like those moments where ur going down a steep hill in a rollercoaster. and ur heart feels like it's in midair. then when u reach terminal velocity it feels like there's a giant fan beneath you!!!!

ANYWAY

also, i remember posting before that i can't get work done unless i feel organized. well ive been organizing my stuff for a while now and i still havent finished. SO GG haaahaa

i exercise!....duty of care!

I JUST HAD TO POST TODAY.
dunno why but i feel like im responsible for keeping my readers reading! im such a nicey 8D

anywayz i have just finished secretly planking on my sister. she was lying on the bed playing with the ipad.

YES IPAD. zomg shouldnve sed that now everyone wants to be my friend. im already liek TOO populerz totes mcboats.

anyway she was lying belly down on the bed so i sneaked up on her and plonked my self in plank position (ALLITERATION) on top of her. HAHAHAHHHAHAHHA it felt so weird no joke like my sister feels like some squishy fish. ANYWAYS. lets talk about something less weird.

DO U GUYS REMEMBER ME having an awful sense of direction? well a few days ago i finally realized how to go from town hal lto st james. ITS SO CLOSE, you just turn a corner. mind equals BLOWWNNNNNN!!

ALSO, at kinokuniya, there were two identical books. on was 35 bucks another was 37. maybe the currency conversions were different because the price of the book was converted from 1600 yen during different times of the year? ANYWAY clarence bought the 37 dollar one. face equals palmed!

WHAT ELSE? uhmmm, everyday i pray i see someone i know when i go out coz i really need to see some YEAR 11 faces!!

i hav done NO WORK AT ALL cept for like read an english booklet. dude whaz wrong! everythings starting to count. WHY? ARHARGHRGHH. it's bleach! i keep watching like a million episode a day.

and....

EVERYDAY WE'RE SHUFFLING

DUN DUNDUNDUNUNUDNUNUDNUDDDDUN. me n my sis hav been doing sum free-stylin' bebehs

8DD OK TIME TO GO. leave a comment below. even if it's anon!! having a ocmment appear makes my heart leap ten feet into the air. especially if it's a love message ;] hinthintnudgenudge

PRE-POST

EVERYTIMe I HAVE TIME. i dont post. AKA HOLIDAYYYSS!!
when i actually dont hav time, like during exams, i post. great psychology.

anyway theres nothing i can think of right now to write so ill jus leave it here. see ya next time :D

matteimasu!

4u 4 u!! (four u for you)

GOT INTO FOUR U MATH TODAYYYY! im on trial but whatevverr IM IN! BRUHH

so many people i know im my class.

marco
bang
yvonne
abbirami
puneet
charmaine
clarence
steven

SO EXCITED. will be awesome! YEAHEYAEHYAEHYAHE 8DDDDDD. i have been high fiving abbirami all through out today at random coz CHYEAHH! and this morning when we went to ask woody. WODDY gave the sweetest genuine smile ever! it was not mocking and warm. LOL

ALSO ive been thinnking.

TYPES OF RELATIONSHIPS I HAV WITH PEEPOOLS

- people i dont know at all, but i eventually talk to them like good frikends coz they're soooo nice and easy to talk to coz of their warm-heartedness.
-people i don't know but i REALLY wanna talk to them but i can't bring myself to because some mechanism in my mouth shuts down. no joke. this happens because i can NEVER imagine myself talking to them. and also coz they emit repel vibes. I WANT TO TALK TO THEM buut mouth goes zippity zipppp
-people i know but our relationship is very volatile. like sometimes i talk to them like their my bez friend but other times we don't talk for weeks. so i don't know if they even count as a friend
-people i know but i don't really talk to. because we're not on the same wavelength? or ismply coz i dont know them ENUFF.

theres more but right now im tired LOL. and i ceebs continuing so ill leave it here. 8)

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STUFF ABOUT ME YO. for people who wanna... GET TO KNOW ME A LITTLE BIT MORE ;] and perhaps get closer to meeee ;;;;]]] LOL juskiddin

im so care-free about everything. i sorta come off as unserious type. like even when im talking to woody, i jus talk like he's my buddy. not enuffss respect a teacher should get. YEAH. even when i TRY to be proper, something slips.

i think everyone else is like me and thinks about things EXACTLY the way i do, but obviously not! coz once i was super confident bout math 2u test, and my friend sed i was really cocky bout it. i thought i was just being excited about knowing how to do 99% of the questions. SO LOL

also i also seem clueless. like confused. sometimes its coz i don't listen. other times its coz instructions to do some sort of work aren't specific enuf. things gtta be specific coz i think too much. thats why i hav so many questions.

i listen but it doesnt go in my brain sumtimes. if the sentence goes on for too long i lose track. ITS NOT JUST ME RIGHT? like also when ur reading. i can just read a paragraph but not create any meaning from it even thought you've just read every word. so u read things over and over again.

when im speakign for long periods of time about like something that happened etc. and i haven't prepared it in my mind i lose my train of thought and i tend to stop and have a mind blank for like ten seconds because ive seriously forgot what i was even talking about.

someone needs to hand me a guidebook on everything. what to do whenever. coz i jus do anything whenever and at random.

my mind is blank a lot. like nothing is in it i swear. in the car my family is always you know thinking to themselves bout what to do blah. i just sit there and look outside the window or stare straight forward and think about. WAIT. i dont think. i dont even know im thinking about nothing until my mum tells me to think about hw or wtv. I BET IM NOT THE ONLY ONE. REVEAL URSELVES NON-THINKERS!

ALSO why can't i remember my dreams anyMOAR???my conciousness was there. so that means i've experienced what ever i did in my dream right. so why!

hollowness on the inside is pretty darn uncomfortable. hollonewss is felt when ur bored, purposeless or un-entertained. basically when ur lackign something or missing something in life. I THINK. so everyone should be feeling hollow right now hehe

normally, its routine for me to understand everyone. like I think things from their point of view, but sometimes my opinions come first ;) HOHO.

i keep waiting for something ULTRACOOL to happen in life. BUT WAIT NO MORE, i shall activate myself.

istill having an inner debate on whether its better to accept, or change things. chyeah im sophisticated liek dat. *flicks hair superficially*

it does feel good to be around people. people need people.

and is joining a not so familiar group of people in convo. INTRUDING? like just walking up to their group because you wanna talk to them simply because you've never talked to them and u wanna talk to them?

Fully G songs r the coolest. They make my bones excited lol n Sad songs r icy n r mostly music boxes. Additionally, I don't make sense.

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OK this POST BETTER NOT HAVE COME OFF AS WEIRD. coz i think its coolztaboolz 8)

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HAHA today i post a lot. BUT I NEED TO SAY, i just went outside my room fully prepared to do japanese study for 1 hr BUT, but when i left the room, no lights were on and turns out everyone went to sleep .and now i lost my inspiration. coz i liek it when people are around. even if they dont interact with me. they can be doing thier own thing but not sleepingggg.

WHAT HAPPENED TO MY GOOD NIGHTS!! they sed nothing b4 they went to sleep! not one word. ==

jeebus. OK IM GOING TO SLEEP. psh i dont need good byes. i only need me myself and I haha


AND THE SONG LULLABY -JOEY MOE has naice beats. :D

MAX AND MARY

ive just watched this film for belonging 2u AND ITS ONE OF THOSE STORYLINESSS!! where the whole movie ur kinda like waiting for the moment but the moment never comes, the moment is about to come but slips away!

MAX AND MARY. is than name of da film.

about this girl child and 44 year old man who writes letters to each other for their lives, talking about their hard ships etc. it's a claymation. the girls from austrlia, the guy form america.

anyway its very pitiful the movie, the whole thing is bleak, basically no colour, just kinda, browny, black, nnd grey.

so anyway, stuff happens and their meeting is hindered. and at the end of the movie, after 30 years of you know issues, problems, life changing occurences, the girl, who is now a woman goes to visit the man. BUT WHEN SHE DOES open the door to his apartment, he's dead. he died JUST that morning.

WHY? WHYY? WHYYYYYYYWYWYWYWY? *pulls facial skin downwards*

lots of other stuff happened. the meeting wasnt the biggest part of it but im just talki\ng bout it anyway.

i think it's a super great movie. explores heaps of themes but lets not get into that. BUT it's one of those sweet movies that are bitter. couldve just sed bittersweet lol

anyways STILL, the whole movie they were looking forward to their meeting!! They were best friends. the girl was the only friend he ever had. vice versa! )8 and when she finally meets him, he's lying on the couch dead, with a smile on his face. and the movie's not a love story. 8)

this is how weiard i iamm

lemme tell u of my aimlessness

i swear after this year ends ill be like, so what cool thing did i do in 2011 and ill be like stuck there thinking: NOTHANG.

anywayz

i didnt make ext 2 maths but i went to talk to woooody, and woody acted like a woody. so he gave a woody answer. which is ill think bout it which is probably no. coz i dont think he has a good impression on me, firstly i was on probation for 3u with him, so i went to talk to him about it. CONVO didnt go good(beginning of year) then after half yearlies i asked to transfer from class 7 to 6. convo didn't go well but i still transferred. and now im asking him AGEN for another "favour" since it's woody. YEAHH. lets see hwo this goes. GOn be interesting 8)

how much wood would a woodchuck chuck if a woodchuck could chuck wood? HEHHYY?

nihongo no N3 shiken wa kimasu.

warui da ze
and ive notcied that characters in bleach (males) end their sentences tith. "DA ZE" in a jap pronounciation. it's preety cool LOL

and Grimmjow Jaegerjaquez is cool. HEREZ A PIC.

and also!

i normally dont do work(HW intelligible stuff) but when i do. FEEELLLLLSSSS SOOO GOOD. worksgasmic LOL but seriouslyyy! 8)

blogsurfing

i have been blogsurfing YUS.

and i see this wave of posts about feminism.

im not gnna make any comment about it in my post, because im not well informed of this topic and i know seirously next to nothing about feminism. which kinda shows how stupid, ignorant i am about issues these days..

anyway just wanna say i feel foolishly foolish and immature )8 i mean look at what i post about. = = like wake up julia.

myabe i should go do some extensive reading. haha

whaz that buzzin' noize

RIGHT NOW IM BUZZING WITH ENERGY.

my theme song right now should be..
DUNDUNDUNDNN


DANGEROUS by ying yang twins >) hehh


LIKE A BOSS. HAHAHAH

if i only this energy can be converted into studyyy ;]

ive noticed

you know sometimes, when u doodle on scrap pieces of paper during phone calls, during class at the back of your book or whenever.

ive just realized i tend to draw eyes. human eyes mixed anime, so it's 3d but an eye inbetween anime and human.

anyways, next i draw like random geometric shapes with faces in them YEAH itza habit.

and today i found out who 2 peoplehs are asking to the semiformal.
wooooooooooo! in a time span of 10 seconds haha, i asked the first dude who he was asking ,and then the second guy. and they replied so quick haha 8)

i liek how guys are so straightforward. if it were a girl, it would take heaps of fishing(if dat makes sense) and 10 dnms or something just to get there

also, ii think reading manga/ watching anime. esp the fantasy ones? like bleach, one piece, fairy tail etceteeecetecc makes real life seem a tiiinny bit boring, because you know u can't even jump of a 3 metre wall without being injured. in anime, jumping of a 3 metre wall is nothing. and irl, theres no epic adventure. and irl, things like that dont exactly exist

saying this makes me sound immature, but dayum wish there were such thing like that in this world.!

anyway not saying real life doesnt hav its interesting bits, i just haven't had a WOOOAHHHH experience in a while.

anywayz snap bak to real life. I HAVE HAVE JLPT (japanese language proficiency test) N3 likeeeee in december, not long!! and clarence is doing the same test and well our difference in intelligence in jap is like BIG, not even exaggerating.

SO I SHOULD START STUDYIG WHICH I AM NOT. i look at the like 100101000000+ vocab and im just like calling it quits already. OK ganbaru can do dis! 8)

I MAKEBELIEVE

wooo post title has blog name.

this is a special moment on my blog.

should make it japanese aye, since this blog has not been filled with japanese posts since forever.

ANYWAY

nihongode kakimasu

nihongowa nigatedato omoimasu

tsugino gakki wa HSC node watashiwa hayaku nihongo wo benkyou shinakerebanarimasen.

demo!!!! kotoba dakedesu.

GG LOL

shall psot next time when i actually have interesting news.

sundays

out of my boredom, i made strawberry crepes. wooooo! since i hav a crepe machine lol

and oh my gosh the one i made looks pretty pro(4 my standards) and yeh i shoved some whipped cream in n im eating it now! YUM no pic sorry )8

ALSO

do u guys ever recognize who's behind you in the house by their footsteps. like when i hear the footstep sounds, or the sound made when the front door of my house i open. i can sorta tell who's home. like coz my dad's entrance is always accompanied by a large jangling of keys etc. LIKE so cooool LOL

8)

maybe i should go do some work. AND I STARTED READING BLEACH. good manga!

FATTIES BE FATTING DINKUMS BE DINKUMING LOL

Let me tell you a story.

Today I was with an acquaintance, this girl and we went to westfield together to eat coz she had to catch her bus in 30 mins so she had time. And u know, like usual we talked about school and stuff and then we parted to buy our own food.

She got the kfc snackbox

I got this foot long sub right coz u know, im a…. growing.. girl yeah

Anyway we sat down afterwards and she was like: u gon eat ALL of that? And gave me a shocked look. So I was like nahh, im eating one half and the other half for dinner. And she was like ok and so we kept talking eating, I finished my first half of the subway and didn’t even touch the other half. UNTIL SHE LEFT. HOHOHOHOHOO. I ATE THE WHOLE SUBWAY 8) OMNOMNOMOLICIOUS.

ZOMG, in roll call once, ms doyle was like, “blahb lhablahbalha hhh fair dinkum”  and someone in the class was like, “yes. Fairest of the dinkums.” LIKE HAHAHAHAHAAHA, that was hilarious, I THINK it woz tom. I THINK. And yes. I do think. 

: 0

turned out i got zero for my 2u essay. BRAh, first zero in my whole life.

when i confronted ba1, (the use of the word confronted creates a demeaning tone i dnno) the look she gaved me said, "i know you cheated, u deserved that zero" >( or so that’s what I interpreted.

but stilllll, bad vibes were eminating from her, and i reckon she thinks im a cheaterrrr/liar, but! I am not.

But it was dodgy, what I did.

u judge for yourself:

these are theeeee facts

1. i brought exam notes into 2u exam

No shiz the teachers thought i attempted to cheat

2. i put it under my table

teachers thoughts: attempt to copy essay

3. essay i wrote was very similar to exam notes which is my pre-written essay

teachers SAYS: very likely u copied 

my thoughts: i didnt copy and i reckon if you compared most student's essays with their actual written, they should be mostly word for word

more facts

1. i didn't even look at those notes.

2. if i had put those exam notes in my pocket nothing would have happened.

3. now that i get 0 for 2u, then GG, my atar estimate is screwed up coz 2u has to count.

I brought my notes in 4 last minute study and everyone was seated so I folded it up and put it under table.

Disjointed post this is.

One day later I went into the office to talk to b4l and when i was talking to the teachers, coz I told them I folded the notes up. They were like where are the folds?  And I took my notes and looked and there were indistinct fold lines because folded it without pressing odwn on the fold. And I could see the faded lines but when I pointed it out to them, they were like where? Coz the lines were faded well obvs after a day, the already indistinct fold would be even more indistinct. I looked stupid pointing out the almost non-existant folds because it made me look like I was just being a really really bad liar.

Anyway after the English 2u exam, I gave in my exam notes, coz u know I didn’t think it was dodgy at the time, putting it folded up under foot of desk coz people could put unclear pencil cases under their desks right so I gave it in to the teacher to chuck away and that’s where they were like: that’s dodgy and I was like in my head: hay that was pretty dodgy

Anyway, I have no witnesses coz no one looks at me in an exam duh and theres no surveillance camera

So I guess in a way its reasonable I got a zero because the teachers just hafta assume the worst case scenario.

But now I hav a black mark against my name. because in all honestly, I don’t think they believe I didn’t cheat

And what makes it worse is my known part-retarded, non-serious personality contributes to their neg. thoughts on me.

On a positive note, it’s prelims and not hsc so it’s alrite.

On a negative note, I want a proper atar estimate mark )8 and English mark so I hope they don’t just blindly wirte a zero, because I want to know what kind of mark I would get for writing that essay.

OHHH And afterwards, in my eco test, the teacher who called me out for bringing in those notes kept hovering around me. Actually she was obviously keeping her eye on me. In fact, she was one metre away from me standing there just eyeing me. and I know why she’s doing that, I get why, but from my pov, that was freaking irritating, annoyed the shit out of me because I hate it when people don’t believe me.

Anyways, long post because somewhere in my heart lol if I hav one after this mean post, I feel --- >   extremely  D<

Oh yeah and my only justification to the teachers now is "i didn't look" so GG I have officially ruined my reputation with some people because I assure u, out of the many people that know about my situation, there has to be one or two people who won’t believe I didn’t take a look at those exam notes.

And u knowwhats really sad. My parents don’t believe me. which bring me to my next point

My sister is the greatest friend ever.LOL She might not like me, but she believes me. and to me that matters like A LOT

Corny post I know anyway. This situation reminds me of some time ago

At my piano teachers house, someone carved the word tracey in blue pen into the wooden table in the house and everyone thought it was me without a doubt, cept for my sister. But I didn’t do it.

Imagine those who went under death sentence long time ago, who were wrongly accused, I empathise, they must feel a million times injusticed.

Anyway long post, I feel kinda better nao yayayeyryrr.

post 101

the stuf i am about to type is stuff i think only i think about which is completely untrue(coz i like to think myself as speshul ;) hehe) but obviously u guys have all thought of this but im typing this up anyway coz i tihnk the idea of it is pretty interesting

god gave us free will  yar
which means choosing your own path u must take in life.
 like it's pretty sad how if you choose one option in life, you can't choose another. like you'll never ever EVER EEVVERRR! get to test out the other option. like in games you create two accounts, try different options and see where it leads you but irl only one.

in the case of ice cream flavours, if you choose the chocolate flavour, you can't choose the vanilla. even though you can choose the vanilla one later, you've missed the option of choosing the vanilla flavour FIRST and thus u've changed the whole course of events that stem from the action.

LEADS ME TO MY NEXT idea: fate

yeah so fate is determined by every little thing you do. lets say you chose the vanilla flavour, yeah u buy it and eat it. like what if u chose the chocolate flavour, maybe the seller's fav. flavour is chocolate. they might strike up a convo with u, "HEyyy i like chocolate tooo!" and then you know u might talk back and then maybe u guys could end up married or something.

thats the story of how i came into james ruse, one little thing hapening affecting another, leading up to here right now.wooooo! if i had chosen another action, maybe i wouldve ended up a movie star.

it all depends on. DRUM ROOOOLLLL : luck

THUS my point issss, if ur fate is partly determined by luck and partly by ur own choice.

WOOHOOOOOOOO!!
haha keep moving forward in life, choose wisely LOL

random

wet black road is glossy and reflective 8D

voluptuous woman is voluptuous

100th post

woooo 100th post. yay can't believe i posted so many posts anyway

1) POTTERMORE!!! my potions brew right but i keep forgetting to go back in the set time to finish brewing my potion sooo RAGHHH POOR INGREDIENTS. gooing to waste coz of my forgetfulness(coz someone has been pouring forgetfulness potion into my drinks obvs)

OH and emily and stuff if u havent added me: flamefrog99

2) OH AND TODAY randomly i just had to mention this coz idunno it struck a cord with me LOL, i think me puneet tom were talking and tom was like, he judged whether or not he did well in exams not by answering the quesiton but by filling in the space of the answer AND I agreeee! like economics for example. i know close to nothing except for some demand and supply graphs BUT i thought i did pretty alright coz you know, i filled in all the spaces for the writing bit with random bits of my bs.!

3) Me and my sis went to a chinese restaraunt in our school unifrom by ourselves, and we felt out of place coz you know normally adults go there. ANYWAY, i was ordering from the menu and the guy taking my order treated me like a 5 year old child, and fully gave me that smily you give littlewittle children.
HELLOO IM LIEK A MATURE WOMAN. lol nottt

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2 hours later - since i left this post to be completed.

1) OH MY FREAKING GOSH. I FORGOT ABOUT MY POTION. WHAT THE HECK IS WRONG WITH ME.AISHFIHFDIDSGHISDHGIUH

2) THERE WERE MEANT TO BE 5 PEOPLE COMING TO MY HOUSE BUT NOW THERES ONLY 2, MAYBE REDUCED TO ONE. so sad, and it took me a lot of jokes and nice talk from me to let my friends over to my house. )8 u guys suck. great friends u r

3)  my jersey design got rejected. rejecting my jersey is like rejecting me, and since ive been rejected. i feel rejected. BUT I HAVE ANEW JERSEY DESIGN HOHOHOHO

4) maths sucked. no comment

one and only KPOPOPOPOST never again

HELLO.

DOES ANYONE KNOW IU?
she's pretty cool

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AND GD AND TOP
ZOMG
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FL0sfti1DcA
DOUBLE DOUBLEEEE WOOOOOWOOOO it's knock out by them



MABOY BY SISTAR19 IS COOL TOOO...

woohooooo

ZOMG COKROACH

i walked into the kitchen and turned the lights on, and there woz this cokroach and it used intimidation on me!! it was this big/ screen on 100% pl0x
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the tihng about roaches are that they are sooo shiny/big and they feel MORE alive than other bugs coz u know, their tentaclly things move around and yeah. and i think people dont like roaches coz they're very hard to kill.

LOL this is preety sad im talking  about killing roaches but sitll

nubmer 1, you can't kill them with a tissue, coz unlike other bugs, they're HUGE and they probably won't die and they'll squirm in ur hand and that feels YUCK and the guts come out and basically you hear the crackling noise and it's just so GROSSS!

number two, if u use a slipper, the slipper gets u know 'contaminated' and the bug may still be alive, and u hafta hit it another 5 times and that's just sad. poor bug, once is enuf uknow! and then anyway, afterwards, it's all mushed up on the floor!

number 3, yeah generally, they are too 'alive' like if u saw a spider in a house, ud kill it right? but if you saw a lizard you would put it in a container and let it out into the bush. killing a spider doesn't feel like murder. but killing a lizard/rat does.

anyways after i saw the cokroach, i was suprised so i jumped up and i hit my knee on my oven and it felt unbearably funny/painful feeling, like when u knock ur funny bone really hard u kinda laugh and suffer in pain at the same time.

and apologies to bug lovers for this ghastly post. but dw, it's still alive... and... IN THE KITCHEN!!! D8

):a post bout my stupidity

WARNING. wut u read below is very complainy so stop here if u dont wanna hear complainy stuff.bout math)8

i couldn't cram all my math in two days in the end. 

ok these are my stats like a week ago for 3u math

belief in self: 10pts

calmness: 10pts

actual intelligence: 1pt

AFTER GOING THROUGH SOME MATHS PAST PAPER

-2 pts for each past paper i do and then like - 100 after the 2010 one. calmness is on negative points  and actual intelligence has risen to 1.5 pt after learning a tiny bit more.

i can't even say i did the 2010 math paper. coz i couldn't even do 90% of the questions.

RGHaRH i don't get perms and combs, i don't know my circle geo rules, and i don't know polynomials and parametrics

GG

ill post something cooler next time. 

catchya laterz!

dadday getit? (dad day/daddy) LOL LAME

haappaayy fathers day! to readers haha

today i spent extra long time eating dinner because mum cooked soooo much yummy food, in such big quantities, i just had to stay longer.

couldn't shove all da food down in only 20 mins yaknow.

so yeah. OMG dinner featured abalonnneee. tasty. and they're expensive too, i felt like a rich person today

and there were al lthese other delicacies like jellyfish. YUMM. etcetc

so much meat lol. niku ga takusan. watashiwa sukii. ME GUSTA

LOL anyway i think i need to go bathroom now. TMI? ending post here. BYE!!!!

LARGEST KNOWN PRIME NUMBER

http://www.math.utah.edu/~pa/math/largeprime.html


chek it out. has like 4 million digits. WUT THE CRAZY, can't even test if its a prime LOL

saywut? 8(

i was jus thinking, how sad our memorizing capacity is. like i can't remember all the funny/fun things i did when i was 10, 11, 12, 13, 14 etc.. like i knew i did stuff. i knew i went to china, probably had fun but i can't remember what exactly i did, and how i felt when i was there. in other words i can't relive the moment, like i can relive moments that happened one day ago!!!

so when im 40 lets say, ill be like, soo.. apart from the fact i went to james ruse, what did i do? what did i do in ruse. and ill end up looking over fotoes and be like- wait, this happened? ill be like, how did i feel as a high schooler yeah.

BUT our memory capacity is quite the good. i mean compared to people with amnesia, severe forms who forget everything.

like i read this article about a guy once, i was trying to find it so i could link you but he had a form of amnesia where he forgot everything that happens after he acquired the disease, he oculd remember stuff b4 but that was it. so literally speaking he 'lives in the present' like i wonder how that feels!!

yeah i found an article on a lady that had the same condition. http://www.independent.co.uk/life-style/health-and-families/health-news/living-with-shortterm-amnesia-508578.html

must be verrrrryyryyyyyy frustrating. like something cool happens and then afterwards ur like. something cool happened and i was there?

OH and can humans have dreams that feel like it lasted for ten years? coz that would be verrryy disorientatinggggggg.

AND kudos to me coz when i was young i could ride a scooter. 8) thought it was worth mentioning LOLOL

COOOOOL

OOH i just thought of something i would like to try but probably never will. So i was in the bathroom after shower, standing on the bathroom sink coz it was so cold and i wanted to be closer to the heat source from the light. anyway i thought to myself...

HOW WOULD IT FEEL if i let go of the bar i was holding onto and let my legs soften. LIKE i would just crumble to the ground and like knock into the objects around me. and it will be painful i guess, but like how does it feeel? like do ur eyes close when u fall, or are they open as u see yourself dropping towards the floor.

ANYWAY id never do that, but just thought about it. coz it's an experience id prolly never come across in my life.

SONG BY GD AND TOP - baby good night
this song is so sensual, kind of gaye if u know what i mean but i love it!! so catchyyyy!!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uXiOH8pzLdM