argh. can't. concentrate!

searching for study music to calm the nerves. lemme tell u what i do when i can't concentrate
- eat
- 9gag + fb
- ukelele
- piano
- lie on bed
- sit under the sun in garden
- go for a drive
- go for a walk

anyway i was procrastinating once again. seaerching for study music to stop  my excited bodily cells from running around. and you know settle dem activeness my body contains sumtimes.

yeah foudn this youtube channel: StudyMusicProject
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IQgvQsHJhdM&feature=results_main&playnext=1&list=PLE92FBF5EC25D649C

came across this song first. i just wanna say that these songs are more tear-leaky than sea-calmy. LOL like my vocab? tear-leaky = depressing and sea-calming, well, calm!

ok byebyebyebeybeybeybeyebyebey. i just can't seem to settle down. SOMEONE HELPPPP!! SOSOSOOSOS HELLPP HSELESPP HELLP! )8)***08880808) BRARARHARHARHHARH
keyboard spamz.

does it take some people waywaywayway more will power to study than others? or is it vaguely similar?

HEAL!!!TH

i would like to say that staying healthy is extremely important. yesterday i ate something, was queasy for half a day and chucked in the evening. felt queasy afterwards at 8pm-ish went to sleep so i wouldn't feel queasy woke up i nthe morning felt a bit dizzy. now im slightly better.

i didnt' get to do my essay ): but in my extremely uncomfortable nauseous state (head all fogged up) i remember thinking to myself. screw tha HSC just lemme gett betterrrr! so yeah

in short: take care of your body!

AYE-K

today my body ached. it was sore and tender. LOL like raw meat haha!

anyway so i woke up in the morning, and i felt like a ragdoll.

and yeah. im still aching all over. it feels nice in a way, coz it feels like im recovering from a physical injury or something.

i wil now take a shower woot! and relaxxxx

you know dat mom?

you know that moment when you've just rememberd something important and u think to urself. what would've happened if you didn't remember it! and then you give a little pat on the back to your memory. yes those moments

heloo?? anybawdy here

no one tickticktickkiiess or cheks le boxies at the bottom of my postsss anymore. it assures me ov ur existence. is nobody hererere??? )8


helllooo?

and holy criap

jus found this randomly O_O

nice guys

http://news.ninemsn.com.au/world/8473750/nfl-star-forgives-girl-who-made-up-rape-story

)O:

hurrah for dah beautiful smiley nose. ---> O

watsup

i met jason wen today :DD
 anyways i remmeber long time ago i read a book either called skin or skins. ican't seem to find it on google,  but i remember it was about a girl, who had just recovered from an accident, and by some sort of science/magic can't remember she put into a new 'fake' body because her body was so mutilated.

and her sister won't accept her because she's not he "real" sister. her real sister is dead she keeps saying. anyways and this girl, because her body is fake, essentially like roboticlike. she cannot feel anything. and she gets really sad because she can't feel anything. the soft grass, runnign water, warmth of the sun.

so she does various extreme activities just to feel the tiniest feeling. like if she jumps of a 10m cliff and falls to the ground, for some reason she'll be able to feel something. and that feeling to her is great.

yeah that story makes me sad BOOHOAHDOHASO

the pursuit to feeeel sumthing. haha

hi monica

welcome to my house LOL

YES.

you know i read other peoples blogs. and there's so much drama

some times i read (generic): "oh so many things have changed. i learn to differ between real friends/fake friends" blah blah.

i always thought stuff like that was only said in movies.

like people falling in love and stuff and living thier dreams etc. duuude, that only happens in movies! but it happens in real life as well.

or like musical i remember someone saying, "we've all been through emotional ups and downs in the making of the musical, but we've made it through and good job". the person who said it probably really meant what they say. you know stuff like that. i always think people say it for the sake of saying it only because im not feeling it.

but they're not hollow phrases. on janes blog i read, " i met people who've strengthened my beliefs..." that's something u hear in movies! not in real life right?!

how does everyone have so much drama, if that's what you call it.

i think the reason why my life has not much "drama" is because my personality in a way has swayed me from such things. like there are some people who are always told other peoples secrets. they're like secret-magnets - they attract gossip. and i guess the combination of my personality and me being me, will (for now hehe) exclude me from secret worlldd!! LOL this is just an example of exclusion ooh! i don't think it's bad or anything, just obviously everything has disadvantages.

how the heck do people have secrets?! can someone please walk up to me and explain. im pretty sure im just not feeling it dammit. i gotta feel the feel.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=q1rMmDNEFaY

found more great signers. so many people sing so good!!

JOOLIA

my post title is my name woo \o/ (athy's symbol thingo HHAA)

anyway, doind hamlet, and coming across the usual theme of death. ms steele says its not a theme but screw dat in this blogpost. anyways we learn about hamlets musings about death, and human achievement. how everyone's going to die whether noble or hobo, u'l all turn into a pile of dust/bag of bones and what not. blahblhal whats the point.

anyways this is slightly related but uh i just realised, in a hundred years time, that all the awsome youtubers, singers will all be dead. and that people could stumble over a youtube video and be like OOH! nice, comment and realise that person is dead and mourn over the fact such a great singer has passed in life.
there ill be a million posts about RIP. LOL very bleak.
we don't really have that now coz. i assume most people on youtube are alive now, coz you know internet has only been around for like what? 50 years maybe? i didn't do my research but im pretty sure im close xD

true actually.
also shakespeare play made me think for the first time haha in contrast to romeo and juliet/mid summer nights dream/merchant of venice

and found it . that was 4 me yayer? i never knew any of the numbers were to me
4. sometimes i wish you knew when to hold your tongue because really your sense of propriety is non-existent

thevoice

you know rachel leahcar on the voice who wanted to be acknowleged as the girl who sings but happens to be blind, not  a blind girl who sings. well anyways i was trying to find this song on the voice so i typed up "the voice" into youtube, and the suggestion box popped up like 5th on the list "the voice blind girl"

no comment. just an observation  haha

drawing anime peeps

youtube channel:sophiachan90

anyway, watching her draw gives me the great peace haha. she draws anime btw, but her drawings r so good!

one piece naruto

i was just watching one piece

and king jamon says "when did this circle of revenge begin. but further killing only adds to the circle. and then if a child were to see such things, their eyes grow sharp and hatred comes to live in their hearts and so the chain simply grows bigger. i understand otohime's words... but only when it was another person's problem. but the one that killed my wife... why shouldn't i beat him to death..?"

dude similar theme echoed in naruto in his battle with Pain and when the eighttailed dude's subordinates tried to seek revenge on naruto when the though he eighttailed guy had died(temporarily forgot his namee)

:O

marghths

I didn't do physics because after I did the Year 10 physics Olympiad, I realized how much I didn't get motion.

..and NOW it has resurfaced! In 4unit maths. DAMMIT. I just don't logically get motion!! NOO

I look at worked solutions to a motion question and I think: HOW DA HEK did they think of that when it's not even logical (probably is logical though.). it's like they did something random and it just worked out at the end.

normally in math i can vaguely see the end answer, and thus the paths you can take to get there. BUT in motion, I do not see the end answer and therefore, I do not see paths I can take to get there. AND THEREFOORRREE i jsut sub random things into random equations and put my hand on the cambridge maths bible and u know.. hope for da best LOL

Also, sometimes, (hope this makes sense) but sometimes, i look at the answers and i can only just grasp in the most vaguest of the vagueness, how all the working connects together to get the answer. and that in itself isn't really understanding how to solve the math problem because i only get the essence of it not how to really do it. yeah? make sense? coz if it didn't u can say i suck at both math and english HAha

it's like im missing some neural connections between maths steps. and im not very logical as well so GG )8

goodnight. its 1 am. and me tired

im a thinker 8)

sing/dancing/playing an instrument

I realised as i was playing songs i knew on the piano, that i don't know what notes im playing, but somehow it comes out sounding right.
For example the second before im about to play another broken chord lets say, i know where my hand goes. yet if u stop me before playing the next broken chord i wouldn't know where my hand goes or what chord i was going to play, muscle memory?

anyways, then i was like, why am i so bad at learning new choreographies for dance, why is my sister so good at copying moves? well you see, in intermediate dancing, my sister kind of just goes with it, for example, when she teaches me some dance, she constantly forgets what moves come next, but when the music comes on she remembers. well i try to break every single move down!! which is not the way to go( similar to breaking all the stuff i play to single notes and remembering every single note).

anyways point is: maybe it's better to get the jist of things than to break everything down to it's atom and learning that atom.

did that analogy suck LOL?

ofc this doesn't apply to everything.

IDC - i drive carrrr

dayum going on 9gag too much, the thing is like infinite scroll. almost LOL

also went driving yesterday. mhm. liek a boss, i made some pretty cool moves and smooth turns. dad called me a "lao dang" in shang, which basically means LIKE A BOSS.

i want to drive to school now, and pull up, and take my cool sunglasses off. and get out like a super star WOOO.

anwyays buh bye

sukikanjigaoooki

do i dare let time's gentle flow guide me and set me within boundaries?

IZ DAT DEEP? i came up with dat shiz myself hell yeeee

here, time is not demonized (like the global world is by a lot of people apaprently) here time, is gentle and nice, it's so nice and slow that it's comforting, you don't feel what it can do to you. oohhh!

anyways, au revoir
i luf ya'll whether anon or noooooooott. honestly haha

i saw this on Tina's folder today

it was an interesting read, so i shall share it here 

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It’s odd, thinking about death while being an atheist. To understand that afterward, you are simply not.

Dawkins and Hitchens both know that what is coming is permanent. There is no happy ending, with no chance of reunion or redemption in some other plane. Death will be a final parting, permanent and absolute.

In that embrace, it’s not just that Hitchens means a great deal to Dawkins. It’s knowing that soon, they’ll be separated by eternity. And yet, in infinite time and space, two motes of consciousness, against unfathomable odds, simply had the opportunity to enjoy a brief lucidity of life and touch each other in some small way before returning forever to the endless naught.

Honestly, there is absolutely nothing more important than the realization that this life, the single life we have, is all and everything that we will ever have; when it’s over, it’s over. In a way, it gives life more sanctity and meaning than any religion could dream.

- Andrew Loughlin

there are too many talents

this woman. sings like woah
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uvEceNs8p8Y

i will record her channel name for later: tiffyiffyiffy n poongho

nyeh.

its good to konw that within this deeeepppdark HSC chasm. there's still little stuff i look forward to likee....

DRIVING ON DA STREEETS LIEK A G AT NIGHT. mhm that's what i do.

but

friggin time is speeding up as the year goes by.

watashino mirai niwa nanimo shiranai.
GG
like i said maeni....jikan wa daredemo matanai
watashino isshoni hoka no hito no ashi ato wo tadorunowa warui
jibun no atama ga nai HAHAA

demo, nantokanaru. but after i try real hard ofc.

ill try real hard real soon LOL.
was practising my jap so im sorry non jap readers

TIL TEH AND

i would like to call my blog til the end because i will <insert whatever> til the end

it's like another way of saying "always". and there's a tad bit of mystery coz you know. when is the end? OOH where how and what will happenn at the end. it's a phrase full of willpower

LOL anyways i shall still be blognameless 4 now

and my sister just called my post sickening. i am now going to go seek verbal revenge. goodday and goodnight.