strain of thought

i think your day is very much determined by urself.

if u wanna hava good day, i reckon u should be happy

because if ur happy, your "state of mind" is in sync with others. by this, i just mean, you can connect on the same emotional level and be happpy togetharr. coz if ur sad, chances r no ones gonna want to really talk to you(sum1 will ofc, out of kindness psst + friends that care) but i reckon they're not gonna really understand anything, they're just gnna be like "ooh everythings gnna be alrite..!!" whilst patting yo sadness incarnate on the back and thinking, "i wanna hve sum fun now instead"

i mean if ur sad, sure u get attention. burrt, due to everyones similar "happy-state-of-mind", they can't really understand u and they will get bored. (maybe thats just da evil me sumtimes. >D)

so just leave da sadness to urself, bottle it up and cry urself to sleep at night. LOL (jus kidding, iunno)

also, i reckon ur mood/state of mind can affect ur body language, even the tiniest movement oculd indicate repellence. rather than welcomence (and this is why my english sucks, i can never find the right word), and thats why we all should maintain a nice, comfortable and happy state of mind. 8)

i also believe when people read other peoples blogs, they shouldn't take what people say and make assumptions on that person. if someone makes an offensive post, they probably didn't mean to, or they did so out of their angry selves. so just be nonchalant bout it, subconciously judge them whilst conciously trying to understand that from their POV, they think they are doing the 'right' thing at the 'right' moment.

speaking of nonchalance. i also believe i have been nonchalant a lot lately. half this nonchalance is "I CEEBS" and the other half is i feel kinda emotionally reactionless. if dat makes sense. a long time ago, i walk down a corridor, i was full of excitement, zomg, is anyone gnna come from the other side? is it gnna be LOLawkward/funny? am i gnna engage in cool convos if i meet someone alogn the way?!. now i walk thru the school with normallifying-tinted glasses. everythings so normal.

im so familiar with my environment, that i feel meh bout everything. but u know what, the meh-ness of everything right now is self-caused. so it's my fault im feeling da mehness. because im being in a meh-state-of-mind, i eminate body language that shows my disinterestness which repells happy people. i think. HA

thats why change is good. and speaking of change (LOL im just going on and on!) i wanted to make a post on that a month ago, but all the stuff i wanted/needed to say just slipped away. so moral is: if u think of smth cool, type it down immed!

next post, i will articulate everything in proper grammar. coz this post's grammar, is rubbish.