stream of angriness

ok y do i haf to care
push thoughts away
he may be right
ignore him
think positive
postivie
positive
change
show him ur not
be better
ARGH I KEEEEEEEEL YAR
leave him be
he maybe just joking around
but its irritating
ive told him to sotp
but he doesnt
is he a good person then
no he's not
think objectively
can't
can;t put myself in his shoes
well i can but i tihnk differently
argh
what now.
now im angry
y dont i just not care
i can
but caring can't be controld
RAWR
RAWR
RAWR
fuar man.
y is there even a post dedicated to this little thing.

EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
FUCKYAR

and hello my post readers LOLS

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WRINKLES IN TIME

Sometimes I ponder what It will be like when I'm 60. Let me take this chance to remind you all that you guys will all have to be old grannies/grandpas GYAHAHAHAHA. >D

Anyway if I ever had an opportunity to talk to a youngster when I'm 60, I figured it would go along something like this:

Oh Hi There. To you, I maybe another one of those old ladies that randomly converse with children. But I am not, I am actually a child in a grannies body. I wanna be freed from this elderly body  as much as i like myself. And i wanna jump around in a lively young body.

OK I DUNNO!!!!!!!!!DAMMIT i dont wanna be old. someone take me to neverland HHAAHA. actually u know what. maybe it's not so bad.

Also, on the cruise to New Zealand which I partook in last year, I remember there were lots of older aged people on the boat. They would wake up at 7am and have breakfast, and I would walk by, and it was so peaceful and quiet. Some of the couples kind of just looked at each other and the view and remained silent the whole time. Is it so that these couples have been married so longgggggg that they have run out of things to say or is there something deeper here I'm missing out on?

I wonder what they're thinking aboutyeeeeeeeeeeeee!

Also whilst on the topic of old people. Parents told me the people that are 70-80 have nothing much to look forward to anymore except maybe the liveliness of young giddy toddlers and their own children's love. I thought I'd note this down on this blog.

nuthin on me mind!

O K

yvonne said i havent posted any thing in ages - well heres da post

yvonne thinks theres nothing interesting on my blog - well screw u (watch wut u say or REPERCUSSIONS GYAHAHA)

sush reads my blog! YAYA keep reading bebs.

i will be more mature from now on. tommorow i shall keep mah cool and no jumping around.

i smelled a smell in time gone by

TODAY i smelt a smell, that was so familiar.
you know they say that the thing that triggers memory the most is smell.
I just couldn't place that smell, but i knew i had smelt it somewhere sometime.
just for that tiny second, i felt time rewinded ten years.
OFCOURSE nothing that drastic/exaggerated haha but im trying to convey through my lovely eloquent words that something about that smell was so familiar and from ages ago and made me feel nostalgic. yes. dat iz it.


QUESITON TIME

For people who don't procrastinate a lot.

How do you stop procrastinating?

and for people who don't procrastinate,

is it coz you just don't have any feelings of procrastination?

BONERS TOG

CRAP. thats what i said when i was reading my speech to myself

...boners tog. it's meant to be toner's bog. SHIZZA. keep practising! to get it right LOL

wheep.

Actress/singer named Jung Ah-yul committed suicide. ok i dunno her, but her last fb post fascinated me. "nothing consoles me". peeps (or mebbe just me) are so fascinated about the little things that happen b4 sum1 dies. 


and i saw linda wu today, it was nice seeing her smiling and telling me she is happy and all at her new school. ^^ <---- i never type that face, but today i will coz i genuinely feel glad.


heres the article of the actress's death
http://my.entertainment.yahoo.com/news/jung-ah-yul-commits-suicide-185023386.html?fb_action_ids=10151699332079386%2C4097002344134&fb_action_types=news.reads&fb_ref=type%3Aread%2Cuser%3AZ_vvuFrN0KizS-ypjEMv-ipvts4%2Ctype%3Aread%2Cuser%3A7SxzwiwBTwRyWBncL4_YtnEbmrM&fb_source=other_multiline&code=AQAIM_6h1A4ZpXEV7mz0f7i8WQZKWzco2Rpfc4ZLmq3zM6qJe8ilDdDJ6OC6UAmTQl_Uq30oZ-DJ8Ob8_WujI4dnW1j3O2MSS7pFV2mRsFTUh3SIkdSroKpbMAdPGGRgynV2VRYOZkboKqBH_Bb6f_mAvq5SywNzvDkTkXxvraKyi3tZu3yCyAfjBxTJsiU4bVU#_=_

and i saw this in one of the youtube comments, before you look at it, it's da language of thailand, THAILANDESE? Or is it just thai HAHA, anyways. how the hek do u learn it?! it looks the same LOLS
this was taken from a sistar19 vid.

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le femme fighters

generally speaking, all costumes are being so sexualized. not saying its a good thing or bad thing. it could be a good thing, you know some people want an excuse just to be their sexyselves for one day YAYA im off da topik.

anyways yeah, so i search up fighter girl costumes, by that i mean warriors and sword weilding people, and all their clothing is very conspicuously/obviously revealing. high heels and short dresses, with seductive poses

WHY, can't there be any cool female warrior costumes?! their probably are, but the majority of them are like i said, sexualized.

they all seem like kinky bedroom play costume. which is not bad or anything, but i like cool costumes that aren't kinky-bedroom role play like. i mean you type in male costumes in google search and you get fairly normal results. you type in female/girl costumes, and everything comes out kinky styled.

or maybe im only thinking that bcoz the models wearing the clothes have great bodies, kinkifying a costumes that really aren't kinky.

OK yuss.

hmph

I GO ONTO NARUTOGET      (website)
AND THIS IS WHAT I SEE  **(see below)
A BIG UGLY SIGN
STARTING AT ME
I GOT SADNESS IN MY HEART
AND I AINT AFRAID TO SHOW IT.. .SHOW IT. SHOW IT....

THIS IS SUCKY AND YALL KNOW IT!

** this is what i see: 


NARUTO SHIPPUDEN EPISODE 267 HAS BEEN POSTPONED TO NEXT WEEK!

hi emily

this post is dedicated to you.
i cannot find another word for dedicated coz dedicated is such a irreplaceable word. anyway.
today i got my 3unit mark back, sucked balls LOL.

i came last in the class, 32/63 i just scraped a pass which i was kind of glad. but anyway that mark is math 7 standard and an incredible sense of disbelonging i felt in the class. and incredible second-hand pain experienced from my other maths 4 classmates when i told them my mark.

yes mark sucks im sad. thats not the point, the point is, this time i tried pretty hard. It was a bit like in year 10 when i was on probation for 3 unit maths, i tried pretty hard! and i was so scared that effort wouldn't equate to marks (emily ur fear ayee?) i thought, "WHAT IF I TRIED BUT I STILL SUCK" but my results turned up and they were pretty darn good. HOW DID I DO IT?! wth

anyways, so i guess  this time, work did not equal marks. i think i understand a bit of the extent your(emily) suffering HAHA not sure if it's suffering tho?, that sometimes, even though u worked ya ass off, things turn out sucky.

this is a great cause of frustration. i work, n im still freaking dumb. i want a 98.5+ as my final atar, now im scared i might not even make a 98.

and since i have just complained in this post i have to balance it out by going to do some math work to make myself feel better.

BYE BYE!

nosleep=sad

this is a live update.

it is 3:30am and i am still at my 3u english

not sleeping really sux. so cherish dem hours of sleep )=

will my motorskills if thats what you call em, be slower tomorow? i meant.. today LOL!

ceebs

i ceebs to the max. 40% 3u english speech due. ive just started its 11pm due tomorow.

my procrastinatory brain keeps saying. oh this isn't important but it kind of is!! yaknow

finishing this project will be a demonstration of my determination!!!!!

im already subconciously tihnking of pretending to be sick LOL and all sorts of way i could avoid this task, im such a failwhale.

speaking of whales. GOTTA WRITE ABOUT WHALE RIDER FOR DIS TASK )=

KEEP GOING

GOGOJIAYOU

jia you is a literal translation of "add oil" which kind of means "keep going" coz fuel keeps ya going and powers u up yeah?

zomg. im freaking out coz im way too calm!

friggin... can a fairy pop out of nowhere and be like, "ILL REWIND TIME" or say something like "ILL PUT ALL YOUR THOUGHTS INTO A PROPER SPEECH IN 1 SECOND"

devss.

BYEBYE im assuming im going to finish this task. k bye!

BIPOLARBEARS

ok im not angry anymore. my dad's cool (H)
LOL

FUAR momentz. no sympathizers? no? )=

my stomach starts hurting and i tell my dad and he gets all angry at me and starts screaming.

he tells me it's coz i didn't eat properly, i ate like chinese bun thingos for lunch. thats normal! and he bought me those buns so i could eat them for lunch! coz they were going out to shop so id be home alone.

anways he goes. oh no it's coz u didn't eat RICE for lunch, "WHY DIDN'T U EAT RICE HUH?" "eating the buns isn't real food. so don't go telling me ur stomach hurts"

WTH MAKES NO FUCKING SENSE.

then i said "THEN WHY DID U BUY DA BUNS THEN." and he went silent

ARGARHGAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
I KEEL U

scuse da swearing.

AWW(YEAH)SOME!

THE DAY IM REALLY HAPPY WILL BE THE DAY I WILL LOOK UP TO THE SKY ....YES THE SKY COZ THE SKY IS GODDAMN BEAUTIFUL AND DEEP AND COOL LOLOL AND I'LL SCREAM AT THE TOP OF MY VOICEEEEEEE  AND LAFF MY HEAD OF IN RELIEF THAT I HAVE FINALLY ________ SOMETHING'D (i derno yet). AWWWYYEAAAAAA

i kid u not. wait for that day, i assure ull u go deaf if ur within 20 m radius.

:O)
there is also this one girl i look up to a lot a lot. but i can't name her. she was in my sister's grade no she's not my sister haha. but dis girl. respect. maybe i will dedicate a post to her after exams heh. >D

losing trak of breath

u no dat moment when u realize you've been holding your breath for  a long time and you suddenly breath in and your heart just beats the hell out of ur chest, and ur whole body throbs and ur like. SHAT. i wasn't breathing thats why!

yeah dat moment!

PRO-PROCRASTINATION

I was on a website talking about procrastination and it stated that procrastinators say stuff like "I'll feel  more like doing this tomorow" and i thought to myself: mhmmmyeah typical stuff. 


Then it said that procrastinators tell lies such as "I work best under pressure" and "pressure makes them more creative" so they put it off til the next day and my azn eyes got a bit bigger coz ive thought that once before.


Then the website said that procrastinors protect their sense of self by saying "this isn't important" and i thought, zomg what if i start de-importanizing the important!


"procrastinators actively look for distractions" mebbe not actively for me.
"...particularly ones that don't take a lot of commitment on their part". YES SO TRUE
"checking email is almost perfect for this purpose" HOLY CRAP YES + FB +9gag
"They distract themselves as a way of regulating their emotions such as fear of failure" more laziness for me probably.  


and also from the websites. (i lost the link! apologiez!)


3 basic types of procrastinators:
1. arousal types/thrill seekers (LOL) people who wait to the last minute for euphoric ruch
2. avoiders - because of fear of failure/success, but in either case are very concerned with what others think of them: they would rather have others think they lack effort than ability
3. decisional procrastinators, who cannot make a decision. not making a decision absolves procrastinators of responsibility for the outcome of events.


so.. i end this post. which one are you if u do procrastinate? there better be one person who comments or ill jump out my window, on ground floor and be safe.

ACTUALLY u know what. people who read my blog aren't procrastinators LOL this is redundant ) = 

i must add

dislike math! and late nights haah

balls of steele

haha ms steele marked my essay.
comments were not too good, but i was alright since my essays still in its preliminary form.

ok lemme create an analogy. my essay is like gas right now in its formation of a star.
i don't do science so i don't know if what im saying is scientifically corect but you get the idea. the gas is still coming together haha

if i had tried really hard in the essay and fully finished it and she wrote the exact same comment i would be devs!

anyways i quote:
"What are you doing going on for so long and no conclusion no question!
Get out the hint sheet and follow it carefully.
Good luck with exams tmrw."

I was reading this in the st33l3 condescending voice but then i came to the last part and i was like GNAWWW Y SO KIND!

anyways buybuy!

IGGZAMZ

YEAR 12 passes by really fast! it actually does. especially this term.

and next term will pass even faster!

and things will keep speeding up until after HSC and then it will slow. which is kind of good

i er am not floating up in clouds999.

i think a person be happy when they 'know' their way

later!