is was will have has

to me, the present discounts the past (and i donno if i used that verb correctly)

i can't explain it properly so i'll give a scenario im sure you guys will get the jist/gist(?)

OK a person spends 50 years in jail, and tomomrow he gets let out. and once he does get out, the past 50 years would be reduced into a ten second memory that sums up the experience.

(bad example coz im dont really know what a jail experience is like)

it's like if you are not currently in a situation, it doesn't count.

but then again every situation counts because the past was made up of a chain of presents.

so the point is, since the present matters so much (no shit because we can only interact with the present) live life to the fullest.

so in the end, i have no idea what im arguing about actually

since my post was pointless i shall add a point --->    .      <------- isn't it such an adorable point!! LOL THE HEK MAYNE.

YES IT IS HERE

TODAY WAS A HOT AN ARID DAY

THE RAIN HAS FINALLY BEGUN TO FALL.

DO YOU KNOW.. (back to non caps) how great it is to have rain and windiness in a hot and dry day.

friggin eeaatt all thhe rain drops OMNOMNOMNOM

ok going outside to feel the natural phenomena <--- ooh do i sound smart do i do i?!!


and dude my sisters comp resolution just randomly turned from really blurry to clear all of a sudden. what the weirdness?!! when i was using it. holyymolay!

OK TTYL GETTING OUT NOW!!!

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AYAYAYA!!! I remember I had to do a graduation post, but uh the time has passed so I shall spurt out things little by little that pop into my head

ah procrastination + loonngg time = ceebs mood

OK first to all the people who i have talkde to (everyone in the grade even if it's just one sentence) and who are my year, who aren't really in my classes, i can't say your are loved and special because i don't know you enuf but but but!! u r unique because it was you guys who were my surrounding peeps and not another bunch of people who couldve become my surrounding peeps so ur unique in that way!

you have been peripherally acknowledged. and i just made that up. but i acknowledge and aprpeciate your peripheral existence. as in the people who exist around me and create a nice school air and thank yo 4 dat! and u guys r special but choice and circumstance didn't make us meet!
i hope i didn't sound bitchalicious there. but in lay mans terms: YES I DO LIKE U GUYS.

also b4 i forget i would like to add that high school year 7-12 feels like a slab of time that has stopped. like no real progress, you just kind of dwell in this halted space of time, or time of space you get what i mean!!!

ah feel like dinner now LOL POST LATERZ!

TOOOODLYDOOOO I LUF YOOO! LOL well that was random

:I

hello.

it's been a while!!!

and i have now 9 followers. latest one is not jane.. it is patrickelmer or something?! he's blogs are all in german so i do not know what he is doing here but uhh WELCOME!!! :D

UPDATE:
1. i am still deciding on my uni course
2. i am watching a bit of anime
3. i am doing some hsc study

typical stuff, this blog will be pretty inactive imo unless some awesoem thought pops into my head.

feelings right now: my essays suck! SUCK SUCK SUCK BIG TIME. SUPER ASS BIG TIME. and i dont knwo what to do. and OMG maths takes aages to do and i don't even touch mod and jap. ayar what to do what do do

gotttaa

leeeeeaaafffttt

uuppp

 mm m m yy y y y y

gg aaaa  mmmmm eeeeeeeee!

im jsut trying to make it seem like my post is longer haha!

anyway cya next time!

i is envious

the thing about when you get older is yo usee all the people younger than you who have accomplished way more, and u can't help but get a little ittle wittle shittle bit envious haha

and the things is, if you are young, you don't really care because you're thinking about all the things u accomplish when you're a bit older but then you become older and you realize jjust what you haven't accomplished. you get me? some deep-seated envy right there.

anyway today had some delish food with mah harry tutor homies: bonita gu, daniel he, jono yap and sally liang. very warm and family like 8)

we ate at this restaraunt (italian?) and had gourmet pizza and pasta and nutella pizza for dessert! AH ddeeeliiisshhyasss

hope i see them again soon.

everything

I will post about graduation late! PROCRASTINATION IS BAK!

and if ur wondering what im doing now. im reading through all the course booklets so i can apply for uac. ahh you know... anything + law automatically raises the atar to about 99.7 HOOLY CRAP. ooh criminal law soudns nice.

oh yeah and

this crazy course something along the lines of bachelor or economics medicine and surgery (in arts and social sciences) is 99.95 i don't want to do it (couldn't do it if i tried anyway) anyway, duuuude i swear maybe one person will turn up to that course

... crazy stuff. ill just stick to the stuff between 95-99.

so many stories of people

OK anuther thing. today i was at st johns and this woman i don't know how old she was but she had worked as a nurse for 50 years. anyway, she came in to talk to us. she looked 50 but!

anyways when she was yougn and worked as a nurse, she would write things beneath her white frilly apron, and sometimes young hansome lads would give her their number and she would write them beneath her apron.

anyway once that happened, and she forgot about it washed ther laundry and the numbers faded off the apron. and she said, "i couldve married a millionare!" ok that made we weirdly saddened

ah anyway she also back in the day she had the traditional role of women. for example she would wash the dishes, take care of domestic work. but she got bored so she began this "job" (if it is one) of making fake woudns and stuff and she would work at prisons and festivals and casualty simulations. and it all started because she became bored at home all day.

yeah she's pretty badass, and hilariously blunt, he once told a black dude in a prison that she'd have to paint the the fake wounds with black paint because he's black.ALSO LOL she once said she trimmed a guys beard so she could use it on a guy who was quite hairy so the fake wounds wouldn't leave a bare patch of skin when stuck on.

she's such a nice and kind woman. i admire her calmness and how even though this job of hers is quite ____ (can't find the word!!) she puts so much effort into it, loves what she does. coz when you care and value the thing you do, others will also YEyEAH?

also she stores fake blood in her fridge and she said that we'd all ahve an heart attack if we went to her house because of all these fake amputated things she has at home.

she a cool woman!

imma prufrock

applying through UAC is the hardest thing ever, everything sounds so good.

everytime i i think of doing something i feel like im missing out on the stuff im not choosing. happens all the time in life.

eg. there are two exhibitions, i decided to go into Exhibition A but then these people walk out of Ex B saying "ZOMG SO GOOD" i walk into ex B and come out and it was good but people walk out of Ex A going "FUAR that was the best" and i think.. "I MISSED OUT DAMMIT"

i wish i had infinite lives, actually maybe not. but if i could somehow split myself up and walk diff pathways. actually sometimes i wish i would be daring enough to go "SCREW IT ALL" and choose something random like agricultural economics and see how it goes.

but something tells me that's a bad idea. i mean deigan once said, "know your destination" and dont try to "float about in the sea" and see where it takes you.

what should i choose, and which is the best pathway?! are all pathways good?! HELP!

im such a i-dont-wanna-miss-out-on-anything-fun person. imma fish. a cell-fish coz im self-ish! shellfish?

also did i ever say i regret not continuing VA in junior years?

ago

i just read something of mine in year 7 i wrote

"she cried, her tears were like a waterfall and not a leaky tap"
WOWWW WELL WASN'T I POETIC LOL

and also found something i wrote ages ago aaages ago when i was 5 probably.

i get so giddy everytime i uncover some random sheet of paper wedged somewhere with something ive written aaaages ago!

i suddenly wanna read my kindy stuff. can't remember those days, i hope my parents haven't got rid of them. i also want to see my childhood photo albums coz they're always interesting!

anyways here is my childhood written stuff! word for word letter for letter

"yestoday we went to syedney tower ti was the hiyst place it taked 15 minite to go :) there we went to a telescope i saw the river then we went down we went to a movie we saw all the things to go on we went to a cave and a little man story there. were four and the airiplane, that was fun at the crockedilol, we went in we went out to kfc i ate potato yum and salad coco chicken that all my sister had a stamich ake i was very cold i told my mum put on the jaket thats all"

ill upload a pic next time maybe!

inb4 someone telling me that i still type like a five year old bahahah

jumping casltes

this dream i had was absolutely awsum!

somehow the house next to mine had been replaced by a jumping castle, anyway there was no entrance so i had to climb my way in (the walls were 7m high anyway when i looked down into the jumpng castles, the base was a hundred metres down and i was like WOAH how did this happen, and me and the person next to me screamed because we were going to jump in immediately. anyways we fell in and it was the greatest feeling ever! FLLLLYYYIINNNGGG

also i went in to a museum called the "pain museum" dahek?! LOL and i would walk through these corridors and from the walls there would be somekind of electricity/vibaration? emitted that would stun me and cause cause a weird sensation of pain and agony. or something weird so weird so so weird!

end of julia's dream journal!

it was once said

Long time ago I read an article on Huffington post about a man that no one knew of.

and i thought, how can this man be famous if no one knew him. anyway i got interested and clicked the link.

i honestly don't remember much except for the fact he was a really generous man, exceptionally kind. He was always raising awareness for something i cannot remember.

But he lost faith in the world and the people's indifference towards issues of the world, I think he became depressed and killed himself.

he must have perceived the world in such different ways anyway

and I am trying to find the article but i can't. it was in the featured article section.

alsoalsoalsoalsoalsoalsoalsoalsoalsoalsoalsoalsoalsoalsoalsoalsoalsoalsoalsoalsoalsoalsoalsoalsoalsoalsoalso

also after reading a book about a camp prisoner escaping from a political camp in north korea, and being informed about the horrific life the escapee lived in there. (eg experiences of his torture, beatings whenever any sign of weakness was shown during their labour work ewtcetc) I had to tell my self : THIS IS REAL. THIS IS REALTHIS IS REAL

a million times. it is one thing to believe what is written within is true, and it's another thing to (donno how to say it correctly but uh) to REALLY REALIZE that this stuff is real.

yeah the camp known as camp 14 still exists ):

after all, when you sit down and read about stuff written on a page, it's almost like reading an interesting fiction book.

i wish schools would force us to be aware of  way more more more more issues in the world
.
many people are lazy, many people are only moved when things are placed/forced in front of them(aka without takign initiative themselves).

and i myself, want to help, but i feel like a bundle of inaction. you see? im just like most people. i think.

i read a quote on 9gag by Albert Einstein:

The world will not be destroyed by those who do evil, but by those who watch them without doing anything.

maybe it's a bit exaggerated mebbe not. but i think it's quite true.

end of my blog speech! 

yet again

for the a millionth today, today was calm

and calm is nice

but nice is sometimes unexciting

also apparently every 2 seconds someone dies

so many withering people withering by at a witheringly fast pace

TRAIN NEWS:

ngo pfftd when i said he'd definitely miss me

bang insecure'd at his femininity

emma laughed at big biceps.

we all chuckled at roger

and roger ran away (or stayed behind by himself.)
):

and woody is such a candle, so warm and bright. today he was wearing his lovely math6 given sweater with a moustache logo and woody printed on it. it was a soft gentle blue. or maybe it was the gentleness of woody's age. anyway i will miss woody and apparently, according to ann ie lu, he really liked me, chulo and puneet.

yet another leaf blown away

i felt like speaking in part poetic riddle today. LOL u guys get me tho so alls swell.
(today's blog post weirdly inspired by lena's stylistic blog which i luv 2 read. awwwwyyeaaa)

GRASSYGRASSGRASS

when i was little, my grandma + celia + me would go park for a walk and bring this wild grass type of thing home.

pic is below

and my grandma would tell me that if the grass thingo would croak at night. so i slept next to it. waiting for it to croak at night, but it didn't and id fall asleep and wake up the next day and think: dammit i must hav fell asleep when it started croaking

why do children have no logic, and believe in things too much

also i kind of regret not doing continuing visual arts or choosing music when i was in year 9. actually not kind of, i pretty much regret. oh well can always draw by myself at home.

lena if ur reading, i would hav been ur VA buddy! i did va in sghs but i dropped it dammit!

and i must watch "looper" when it comes out. it reminds me of inception but it's about time travel and all that complicated shiz that go with it when a guy meets his future self who travelled back. not fully sure of the plot but extremely captivating ntrailer u guys must watch!

croakcroak BYEBYE!

Basket of ripe fruit

CRAAPPP, da nostalgia

i remember watching "fruits basket", this anime when i was young. and i youtubed some of the songs in it and it's like pangnostalgia... which is a made up word so don't be nostalgia. basically it's nostalgia that gives you a pang.

i haf no idea what pang means but im sure it's along the lines of heart-squelching-ive-experienced-this-before-in-my-past

here is a link if you guys are interested: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JJ0YUYgDiOY ah so so so so so nostalgic. nostalgia makes me a lil sad but no shiz coz nostalgia leans more towards sadness than happiness.

and i will watch: sword art online, eiyuu densetsu sora no kiseki maybe and gundam if i have time. anime wa saiiikkooouuda! (da best basically)

WANTED

looking for a piano-decoder
weekly pay: 0 dollars
needs to tell me the notes for this: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hWXlPXRtQFw
coz it'll take too long for myself to figure it out LOL

HI ABIRA!

lets give a welcome to our neww jooliar.blogspot reader....


presenting to you...


ABIRAAAAA!


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ok bye. HAHAHA

Belonging essay

I wrote this in the belonging essay, the teachers didn't pick it up yaayy!

repetition highlighted in blue. holy crap would sound super dumb if the teachers noticed. also. what a waste of words for me ahah. lucky the teachers dont look very deeply into essays but just give a scanning eye. (u get what i mean!)

"Pegging tent further and further away from Hadrian's wall" reveals the increasing cultural gap between father and son which alongside the exclusive pronoun "his" in "his polish friends" reveal the increasing cultural gap between father and son.

art is an explostion!

or "art is a bang/blast!" is the trademark line for Deidara in Naruto.

In Japanese: geijutsu wa bakuhatsuda!

such a cool line!!!!!!!

Today I discovered, it was actually Taro Okamoto who famously uttered this line!

i will now research more about him haha! yeah in anime they tend to incorporate concepts that stem from actual historical events and figures, such as blackbeard, doflamingo etc in one piece. except you don't realize it until you RANDOMLY stumble across something that tells you so or already have the previous historical knowledge.

since naruto is great! i will show you a few similaritiesss regarding okamoto and deidara.


LEFT: taro okamotos masterpiece "tower of the sun"
RIGHT: Deidara's ultimate jutsu, also his lasts were "ART IS A BLASSTT"

LEFT: Deidara
RIGHT: Taro Okamoto i believe! see where the ideas were inspired

I feel AWESOME for discovering this. im a genius!!

da coolness be overflowin'

GEIJUTSU WA BAKUHATSUDA!

repeat with me guys! gair-joo-ts wah bar-ku-har-ts-da

if you said that... u prolly sounded retarded LOL but anyway NIGHT! im excited

LOLZORS

 i was playing balls with my dad

HAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHAA that sounded weird

anyway we played with those stress balls u get from unsw

and anyway the game was basically, chuck the ball on any surface and let the other person catch the rebound

most hilarious shiz ever.

i was in neutral mode whole day, this made me crack up like an egg

ball kept hitting my dads face accidentally BWAHAHHA. i guess u haf to be there to find it hilarious.

sleep sacrifice

I read this one page document on the negative effects of sacrificing sleep for study. They claimed it was counter-productive, the usual stuff.. and it probably is!

except for me and many others who may do things at the last minute

if we slept, there would be no info in our heads, because the time gained from sacrificing sleep is the time we begin learning all the information - although our brains aren't processing as quickly at such a late time of night.

anyway the point is, try to get things done earlier. preparedness is the key! as we always hear

YO

YO YO

YOYOOYOYOYO

today i tried to put on makeup to look like nicki minaj, but i just looked retarded

YO YO

YOYOYO BYE!

and!

don't go saying it to me at school, coz it loses its awsumness when verbalized. 8)

English session: here I am

i found these three words "here i am" randomly surfing the net.

striking words i must say

should i break these words into pieces?

the word "here" is such a nice word, in this line, it kinda says that that person is right where you are. here. no where else.

"I" gives off this feel that some otherness, some other "I" has arrived for some purpose i know not of

"am" - they exist

whole sentence together gives of a reassuring vibe, that a person has come to heeelllppp.

and the line "we were there" also strikes a hearty chord ahah doesn't need to have a specific context or anything.

YEAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH