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turns out i didn't do so well 4 math.ext1

mayne i sure hope they dont put me down to 2unit math OR kick me out of 4u,

OK i think i got the lowest score in my math class. like im pretty sure. but i thought i did alrite LOOOL.

guess i thought wrong agen.

OH GOSH. my 4u better be average. PUHLEZZZZZ! i wantz to continue doing 3u/4u math. zOMG. I DONT WANT TO FACE WOODY for the a millionth time. because ive already conversed with him about my maths like 3 times already. SO PUHHLLEZZZZ. i hope he doesn't so "HMM..." to my peaperrr.

this counts to hsc dammit, but im sure there are students who were super disappoint, and got really low marks for their standards. so those people cheer up! :) <--- herez a smiley.

but most people did good. which sux 4 me, HSC-rank-wise. OH WELL TOO LATE TROLOLOL.

bee-zerk.

DOES ANYONE HAV A HOUSE WITH A FLAT ROOF THAT U CAN LAY ON?

I NEED TO LIE ON A ROOF ONE DAY. LOL

i jus wanna sit on something high that looks over everything, that's not fully steep.so picky aint i.

like the building in our school. but sumwhere where u won't get suspended, or go to jail LOL.

and i also feel that ive become meaner over the exam week. so take no offense in little actions i may subconciously do.

4 u 4 me

OK im gnna say my last prayerz for 4u.

OK. ode to 4u (before i get kicked out. im so worreh....)

4 u this is 4 u
4 u i never knew u well
... even though IRONICALLY,
we spent hours together every day.
4 u i never understood u,
that's because the only time i tried to understand u was..
THE DAY B4 THE EXAM.
4 u puhlease tell w00dy that im good at doing u.

ZOMG. please let me pass this test. PLEASE AVERAGE. JUST AN AVERAGE WILL DO.

IT MEAN NO WORREH 4 THE RES OF UR DEIZ

GG. i can't even do half the questions in a 4u exam. GGGGGGG

can't get kicked out tho

no can do.

so gtta work... tommorow.

ANIME

OK ANIME I LOVE

ONE PIECE
NARUTO
BLEACH
 may i say that naruto sound tracks are freaking AMAZING. who ever made all those songs should pat them selves on the back. LOL a pat aint even good enuf. TOOOOO AMAZZINNG. ok im gnna bold naruto and make it colourful.

ONE PIECE was my fav anime, now it's become naruto. but that's only because i haven't watched/read one piece in ages. and coz im watching naruto NOW HEHE. if i start watching one piece agen i reckon id like it on par with naruto. and so is bleach. AND I FORGOT. fairy tail yes.LOVE THAT.

gosh i love anime

so are the soundtracks for code geass. they're fully epic.

ALSO!

i was just looking online at resses 4 random. and ZOMG
http://www.asos.com/au/Women/Curve---Sizes-20-26/Dresses/Cat/pgecategory.aspx?cid=9579

IS THIS THEIR CATEGORY FOR PLUS-SIZED DRESS? WTH?? the normal dresses they have r like ultra skinny. these so called "plus-sized " dresses are freaking normalll!
??

pshh.

anywyas back to fun and games

UH OH

It's 7pm now SHIZHIHSIIZ i took a 6 hour nap LOL. makes up for all the one hour - 4 hour nights i had 8DDD so now im side awake!

I FEEL GOOOOOOODDDD DUHNUHNUHNUHUHUU

AND TODAYS ENGLISH 3u. i cannot believe i finished it. i didnt finish 2 u )8 but it was dodgy finish. because i only had 2 paragraphs in my head when i got it. so i quite proud of myself.

now...  i just gtta wait for the marks! D8

I AM SCROOOWED

Ive just realized how i relieve stress. OK i start fidgeting heaps, and i cant keep still, then theres an accumulation of that "uncomforatble" feeling and i just can't stop feeling agitated.

THEN, GUESS WHAT

i go on to da piano, play sum random songs for like 5 minutes and then go back to work calmer.

ive jus realized, coz ive been stressing over english, so every 20 minutes or so, i go on to da piano and go play sum stuff. stress converts into music WOOPWOOP. and its not like im forcing myself to go, its just it feels RIGHT to do so, instinctual i gugess.

SHIZ BCK TO 3u fufufufufuufuf

ON FIIIRREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!

oklehs i am now starting 3u essay. WOOO

cheer me on x) heeeeeeeeeeehee

will post a great post after english when theres the weekends to kill timeeeeeeee and prepare for 4unit LOLZ and modern history don't forget.

DELUXE

on a happier note, me and my dad went to this nice sushi place in carlo court yesterday. WE ATE ramen +this delux dinner box WOOOOO!! DELUXE BRAH. DELUUXXEE! dude it was 25 bucks. OK normally the food we order is like less than ten bucks. because all the food we happen to like, 4 sum reason falls under 10 bucls, like u know asian noodles, fried rice and stuff. SO when dad was like

"JULIA, LETS GET THE DELUXE"
i woz like

"HELLYYY EAAAHHHHH" whilst my heart ached a little because it's his money, kinda feel bad because i havent earnt a single cent. and also because 25 bucks is like 1.5 weeks school lunch moneyzzz. ANYWAY

WOOO, freaking delicious. they had those tempura tihngos. YUM YUM YUM YUM and other stuff like eel, salmon BLAH

anyways i felt like a rich person WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

OK ANYWAYS mebbe i should go do work now OLLOLOL SEE YAS!

BELONGINGS

OK i slept like 1 hour for 2u english exam so wen i came home today i napped for like um LOL embarasing to say but like 4-5hours, its like 5 30 now. wut the and im still not really awake. but i forced myself up. LEMME TALK ABOUT ENGLISH EXAM. ok im so non-smart!!

DOOOOD, i didnt finish any paragraph of my essay cept conclusion, i was skipping around. OK INTRO. i wrote half and decided to continue with it later so i would have a better idea of what i was talking about by writing my body paragraphs. but i never went back, i was too slow. so i havent established a thesis really. like, and all my sentences were cut off.

I have 4 body paragraphs in total. i don't have endings for any of them, like the  ending sentence to sum everything up. my last body paragph trailed off 3/4 of the way because they were like pens down. BUT i wrote my conclusion fully. and it kind of answered the question.

the question was : the desire to belong is complex, how is it expressed through BLAHABALHA.
well i couldn't adapt my ideas properly because my ideas weren't about the desire to belong but rather. TO BELONG, THERE ARE BARRIERS. yeesh.

after exam this morning, i felt id do alright despite not completing da essay, but after typing this all out. SHIZ. i seriously hope i get 17  or 18+. PLEASEPLASEPLASE. LOL

and my  level of language deteriorated in the essay, started with nice eloquent, intelligible sentences, with nice verbs and adjectives and vocab in general. then turned out to be like "BECAUSE HE CAN'T BELONG TO PLACE HE CAN"T BELONG AND THAT MEANS NO CONTENTMENT"

OH MY GOSH.

JOOCY

if posible, i would like to enlarge the fruit, blueberry by 20 times, how succulent would the blueberry then BE YMUMIUMUUM!!

ENTERTAINMENT CANDDYY!

hope everything i wrote made sense

post dedicated to people who are still reading through blogs when exams are so close. (like myself LOL)

time of year where everyone's like "IM SO SCREWED" + an extra, "AND EVERYTHING ACTUALLY COUNTS NOW"

SO TRUE

GGGGGG.

my minds occupied with 80% naruto 20% exam shiz, so i haf no cool infos to share. maybe after exams when i feel calmer.

ALSO, i would like to mention that. i feel screwed. OH no shiz, but everyone is feeling screwed. even the seemingly prepared people. ok even though i haven't finished my 2u essay and i havnt started my 3u essay (it's not as bad as it sounds!) and math.. and jap, i reckon sum1 in the grade who has finished all thier essays and shiz feels worse off than me.

ANYWAYS. I AM INDEED more screwed than ever. sum1's gtta find a synonym for that word. also, people are telling me that im screwed. like ultra. and the people who have been telling me that aren't the fully prepared people, they're also the last minuters.

this + steeles condescending tone, "JULIA, ur the biggest procrastinaor ive ever met" + "JULIA, is this only half an essay?" (coz i handed in like 2 paragraphs lol and everyone else handed in like a fiull essay) MAKES ME REALIZE THAT MAYBE MY FEELIGNS OF SCREWEDNESS actually articulate my situation here.

THIS IS SEIROUS MAYNE. but i still feel calm ish.

PS: sometimes, i tihnk that if i post everything on this blog, ill run out of things to say in real life.
lOLOLOL

breeeefth

I have finally started my belonging essay.
and i! am proud of myself *proudface* im like fulyl smiling whilst doing ym essay, coz im so happy im progressing, i think my monitor is freaking out at my face.

TROLOOLOLOOLOL


and my post title is a cross between "brief" and "breathe"
it's conveyed meaning is, that this post is brief and that i should breathe, from any stress i hav 8D

TWISTED

http://www.jillstanek.com/miscarriage/cruel-hoax.html

);

wolfs rain

today. the clouds were cool.

there were many layers

different shades

different overlaps

and they covered the whole sky

and there was depth to it.

so they were coolehz taboolehz

STOP COMPLAINGING. START WORKING YA USLESS FAILURE OF A DAUGHTER

CUT OFF

since im wasting time anyway, i might as well blog in jap.

kyou wa mudadato omounda. itsumo, watashiwa nandemonai wo shiteirudakedo shukudai to hokano koto wo benkyou ga oosugiruno.

HSC (lololololololol only part non jap peeps understnad) wa sukunai shuukan mae hajimarunode, mada bakadadadadadadadaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa - - - -- -

watashiwa naratta kotoba wa "koumon" dake. kanashii?

hai. kanashisugiru.

BYE. work sux.

maths is kirai

i am totemo stuffed. watashiwa KNEW that my warui study habits would carry on to jyuuni nensei.

I KNEW IT I KNEW IT I KNEW IT!!

last term, i was like: I WILL DO MY WORK. i will get my work and finish it on the day. and it wasn't just talk. it was talk that would be fulfilled. AND I KNEW i would do my work. andi did improve.
BUT ALSO, i knew rationally logically thatmy last minute habit that i have had for my entire life, couldn't be changed so easily, and that as much as i knew i would DO MY WORK ON TIME ON TIME ON TIME!!!. i knew that i wouldn't because of my life-long unchanged bad study behavior. and my prediction is correct.

mada last-minuter.

eff. my life is gnna turn out to be

UH OH

ms 5+331 LOL has told me through out the year that im the biggest procrastinator that she's even met.

and i was like oh shiz.

i thought that everyone was as procrastinaty as me but apparently not. like a teacher saying it gives it a whole new level of legitimacy UH OH

YESSSSS. NOOOOOOO!

THe cool news is when my family and i was at the checkout in Aldi, the counter guy told us to open our bags to chek if therez any stole ngood. s

o we did and he saw sheets of paper and books and he's like "oh, homework i see" and then we laffed coz i think we both thought of the asian stereotype.

anyway suddenly he's like, "12 times 12" and im like "ONE FOUR FOUR" and then he's like "13 squared?" i woz like "ONE SIX NINE"

and he looks at my sister and says, "15 times 15" and my sis is like "twohundred and twenty five" and he looks back at me and says, "14 times 14" and im like "196" and then he's like "GOOD u know ur stuff" and im like LOLSAODLOASLDOLOL


AND GUESS WHAT?

AGES AGO I LOST MY PETER SKRZYNECKI BOOKLET OF POEMS + MY WRITTEN ANALYSIS IN IT FORM DA TEACHER.

SO PREVIOUSLY, I HAD TO COPY SOMEONE ELSES NOTES FROM THE TEACHER. YOU KNOW HOW MUCH STUFF THERE IS TO COPY.

AND NOW, IVE LSOT IT AGAIN. ARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRHGHGHGGHGHGHGH
 IMGNNA CRY SOME IMAGINARY TEARS NWO DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD;;DF;VFD:G:fdG:fdFDSAJONVDS

linky stuff

normality causes boredom, boredom is caused by fear. fear prevents interestingness which means ur life is constant and unchanging. WOOP. i think dat makes sense 8D

and i rather like dis quote, "Stop accepting things as they are, even if they suck."


in a different font to emphasize it ;]

):)

ZOMG THE MOMENT I FINISHED posting my last post, i didn't really like it, jeebus isn't the poster meant to like their posts.

whenever i read back at stuff I've written years ago, i always say to myself, "woah was i like that?" because you get a bad impression of yourself sometimes. But I've read over something I've written less than ten minutes ago, and I just don't feel satisfied with it, because I'm left with a retarded impression. in fact i reckon everything i write is very immature/naive.

end of story. )< im sad now LOL

strain of thought

i think your day is very much determined by urself.

if u wanna hava good day, i reckon u should be happy

because if ur happy, your "state of mind" is in sync with others. by this, i just mean, you can connect on the same emotional level and be happpy togetharr. coz if ur sad, chances r no ones gonna want to really talk to you(sum1 will ofc, out of kindness psst + friends that care) but i reckon they're not gonna really understand anything, they're just gnna be like "ooh everythings gnna be alrite..!!" whilst patting yo sadness incarnate on the back and thinking, "i wanna hve sum fun now instead"

i mean if ur sad, sure u get attention. burrt, due to everyones similar "happy-state-of-mind", they can't really understand u and they will get bored. (maybe thats just da evil me sumtimes. >D)

so just leave da sadness to urself, bottle it up and cry urself to sleep at night. LOL (jus kidding, iunno)

also, i reckon ur mood/state of mind can affect ur body language, even the tiniest movement oculd indicate repellence. rather than welcomence (and this is why my english sucks, i can never find the right word), and thats why we all should maintain a nice, comfortable and happy state of mind. 8)

i also believe when people read other peoples blogs, they shouldn't take what people say and make assumptions on that person. if someone makes an offensive post, they probably didn't mean to, or they did so out of their angry selves. so just be nonchalant bout it, subconciously judge them whilst conciously trying to understand that from their POV, they think they are doing the 'right' thing at the 'right' moment.

speaking of nonchalance. i also believe i have been nonchalant a lot lately. half this nonchalance is "I CEEBS" and the other half is i feel kinda emotionally reactionless. if dat makes sense. a long time ago, i walk down a corridor, i was full of excitement, zomg, is anyone gnna come from the other side? is it gnna be LOLawkward/funny? am i gnna engage in cool convos if i meet someone alogn the way?!. now i walk thru the school with normallifying-tinted glasses. everythings so normal.

im so familiar with my environment, that i feel meh bout everything. but u know what, the meh-ness of everything right now is self-caused. so it's my fault im feeling da mehness. because im being in a meh-state-of-mind, i eminate body language that shows my disinterestness which repells happy people. i think. HA

thats why change is good. and speaking of change (LOL im just going on and on!) i wanted to make a post on that a month ago, but all the stuff i wanted/needed to say just slipped away. so moral is: if u think of smth cool, type it down immed!

next post, i will articulate everything in proper grammar. coz this post's grammar, is rubbish.