lightbulb!

i have come to a realization y some people say the randomest weirdest most retarded things in the whole wide world
...

it's simply because they can! so why not?

but i could be totes wrong!

Sad Shorts

THIS shortfilm is very souly! watch bruzzahs. CLICK IT! NOW! ) :

Next post willnt be a youtube clip... but 4reals watch it!

(luv is?)in the air.

few times already i have had dreams where im skiing, but on crazy terrain. and sometimes i have to jump of cliffs to keep on skiing and it's hectic.

well today, i dreamt of climbing up this huuuuuge vertical cliff that was made of haystacks and i was at the top but i couldn't carry myself over and then just as im about to fall from my weak grip, someone from the other side helped reel me up

my heart was beating so fast... and then i flew over mountains and beautiful scenery standing on a huuuge 3m by 3m post-it note that was magically floating due to Sush's magic powers.

doesn't sound too amazing, but that experience in my head.. SO GOOD!

and also... does anyone want to know what love feels like?

click here
Loveeeee

doesn't it make your heart palpitate? that's what it feels like to fall in love.

I THINK.

YOU HAV GOT TO WATCH THIS

i remember watching this aaages ago. it is a mix of meaningful and sad, you should check it out anyway!!

it's a short video sooo... CLICK BELOW!

y do i

i was talking to this middle aged man in the open day at USYD today mhm

and everytime he said bachelor of arts... not even kidding he says (EXTREMELY DISTINCTIVELY) school of FARTS. and i had to pinch myself to death to prevent myself from laughing, i let out an accidental chuckle. anyway dat dude was very nice

i talked to this B of arts language dude and he was very quirky, dem thick glasses and fancy hand gestures.. yes who else

can't remember any more,

go da freebies. won a stylus thx to athy, gave it too her coz im da BESST :D

got da cube stress ball. got da usyd water bottle

made da latex ball, got da free sausage sizzle, ice cream and fairy floss at the engineering section.

OH! met this girl who reminded me of hasmeera, she was doing design and computing, dat was pretty cool, and yeah

met lots of random people, saw a bunch of people i knew annnnnnnnnnd

i saw helen chan! and she waved at me. HOLYMOLY SHE KNOWS I EXISSTTT HAAAAAAAHAHAHAHA, we've never talked before, and we still havent coz sshe wasn't on the phone, but she waved ..

so BOOYAH u guys all be jelly.

note to self-ignore!

grammar, early 2000s moriah and syd boys
http://users.tpg.com.au/nanahcub/me2.html

for 4unit. suggestion from steven. MUST TAKKE IT! if i hav time

epiphany

i just had a mini flashback to when i was in year 7 sydney girls high where i told myself

...soon ill be in year 12, in a blink of an eye.

and yes now im in year 12

i have reduced all my past 5.5 years of schooling into a blink of an eye. is dat sad?

compressed dem memories yaknow. nothing really stood out in the 5.5 years even though im sure i had my funniest, awseomest moments that i was sure i would remember back in those days.

i should now go write a poem about memories LOL

maybe the present and future matters so much more than what happens in the past even though they become the past anyway.

annndd... ILL STOP HERE! :D

i swear, donno if ive said this before but the more i think about this kind of stuff the older i become.
when im 90, freak, ill think so deep ill go crazy, and talk in riddles to nearby teens.

so ill keep my thoughts shallow...

stop thinking and go frolick in the grass outside. LIEK A CHILD!

LOLJK daz weird, ok ill go sleep now byebye blogreaders

oh n b4 i forget

hi jenny :)

DREALM

had a dream, where i was on a plane and it was appraoching the runway at tremendous speed, and i thoguht to myself: we're dead. and so it kind of crashed into the floor and the plane rolled along, the wings broke and i somehow got launched into the air 30metres, and i fell on the floor...

but everyone else exploded within the plane.

i wake up in a hospital asking where my family was, but they were safe so i was like PHHEWWW

and then i was standing on a really super high up in the clouds tower that was moving, and someone chucks a dragon origami and it kind of flies up into the air majestically.

from all this, moral of the dream is obviously... do your hw!

LOL JK just a random dream

i swear

ok from today. i will not swear, unless necessary.

i have become quite vulgar and now it's time to turn over a new leaf!!

dis i point.

OK i applied for a japanese exchange thingo. didn't make here's the letter.

Dear Julia,
We regret to inform you that your application for the Kizuna Scholarship has not been successful. While this news is disappointing, the high standard of your application is to be commended.
The Kizuna programme is a highly competitive and sought-after scholarship and over 1300 applications were received. The fact that you did not receive this scholarship does not reflect your skills or enthusiasm for the programme, rather it is and indication of the particularly high calibre of candidates and number of places that are available.
Due to the large volume, we are unable to give individual feedback and we thank you for your understanding with this.
We thank you again for the time and effort you put into your application and invite you to regularly check the AFS website www.afs.org.au for updates as there are a number of other scholarship programmes available.
 

I don't like this "everybody is a winner" sorta writing! i donno if this is bitching or me being spiteful. but this is how i feel right now.

OK my internal dialogue begins here:

We regret to inform you that your application for the Kizuna Scholarship has not been successful.

"regret" my ass, don't need emotive words like regret just say "Your application for the kizuna ... has not been successful.". 

You know sometimes (i have a feeling emily would understand) you just want someone to tell you YOU FAILED straight in ya face. yea?

 While this news is disappointing, the high standard of your application is to be commended.

NO SHIT ITS DISAPPOINTING. i don't like how the sender of the email is trying to empathize with the unsuccessful people by saying that!!!!! "The high standard of your application is to be commended" . well FUQ U, that sounded insincere and just randomly added in for the LULZ 

The Kizuna programme is a highly competitive and sought-after scholarship and over 1300 applications were received. 

WOOOAHH.. dat means people hu get accepted r real good ayee? dayum. thats not me

The fact that you did not receive this scholarship does not reflect your skills or enthusiasm for the programme, rather it is and indication of the particularly high calibre of candidates and number of places that are available.

The way this is worded not only emphasizes the "Fact i did not receive this scholarship", and that i am not part of the "high calibre of.." so screw u AFS. LOOOL hear the sounds of my rage

Due to the large volume, we are unable to give individual feedback and we thank you for your understanding with this.

Y u thanking me? who said i have understanding with this?

We thank you again for the time and effort you put into your application and invite you to regularly check the AFS website www.afs.org.au for updates as there are a number of other scholarship programmes available.
 thank me? u better bow down to me guuurrrrllll!

No spite to jenny tho! sincere good luk from me but i feel like ive been deemed as incompetent. 

ok im just being immature little kid. i cannot accept this LOL. FRIGGIN REJECTION

im not irritated by not going to japan. im irritated by the idea of REJECTION. which is something we all have to face in life.

fuckign hate rejection. because rejection makes u feel like ur not "the one" the "special chosen one" 

ARRRRGH fuq rejection. 

I was going to refrain from typing this because i thought it might create a bad atmosphere for u guys, but then i thought where else am i going to write this part from my blog so i did it.

FORGIF ME! and have a nice day. 

i have the worst sportsmanship and now ill go eat some black forest cake! ):

Real-eyes

im realizing lots of different crap (can't find a better word) these days. this year.

mind-opening crap LOL sounds weird

WHY? why do i have to realize all this when im 17years old (Dats old!) it's better than realizing when im 40 i guess but still!

i remember when i was 12-ish i thought to myself, "hurry up learn all the important stuff i need to konw about life, social situations yahdiyadiya" but i remember not knowing what i needed to know

and now that i do know some stuff bout life, i realize what i needed to know when i was younger.

and right now i need to know something which only my future self can tell me.. so FUQ DAT, ill just wait and do things in the meantime to try to shorten the time it takes for me to know stuff.

but i guess many things come with age.

so u guys, there are many things u guys know right now that i dont right?! revelations and stuff! TELL THEM ALL TO MEE! ENLIGHTEN MY UNENLIGHTENED BRAIN!

also there are heaps of stuff i cannot vocalize, the world should create more vocabulary that encapsulates abstract shat.

and while im on the topic....

actually what im about to say isn't even related but uh

i think reading books is a very good way to learn stuff (ok just pretend i didn't say that) it sounds dumb

and also i was talking to emily about this before. why the hek do more people in the arts faculty end up crazy eg musicians/artist/writer.. or am i just stereotyping?

im on a blog post roll today, should make up for my previous dormancy!

BIRTHDAY MUM

hilarious thing happened!

its 11pm, my mum came home from her outing with her friends. we all sing happy birthday

we get out the cake which someone gave our mum but we don't know what type of cake it is

we get all excited

we open the box

we see a fully fatty cake, chocolate, with inch thick cream on top toped with more flakes of chocolate, and dem cherries that have been sweetened + add more sprinkly chocolate on top.

we look at each other

and we all say "OK.. we'll eat this tomorow"

and mum closes the box and puts it away.

friggin LOOL the cake looked waay to sweet

Tell me,

ok does anyone want me to blog anything in particular?

anyways today imma give u a slice of my life, since i dont really blog about life slices.

after exams, everythings everywhere, and im not saying it like a saying as in everything is practically everywhere.

I will literally walk in to any room and find piles of sheets stacked everywhere for my exams, and they're not even stacked orderly

right now i am locating, aka tracking down where all those stacks are. or bundles of random shiz, books dictionaries random tutor stuff all mixed together

and then ill... SORT THEM!

into piles.

although i may not seem like it, i like to organize things b4 i start work... that's also the reason i dont start work often.. because i aint organized at times!

ANYWAYS i have found stacks of random junk i needed for my trials, fallen behind my comp desk, mixed in with my dads work stuff, on top of both printers, lying on the scanner, on my computer desk. UNDER my computer desk, next to by bed, next to my "other" bed. on my "other" bed. resting on the piano, resting ALL over the lounge coffee table, resting in my study room. (most of it's there)

IT'S EVERYWHERE, and im trying to hunt them down.

u see, when i place the sheets in a certain place, my mind (at that time) remembers it. and i think i can track what i need from it down later. but when time passes, i forget. and now yes, i have forgotten and.. and.. AND now it's time to play hide and seek with my junk. (that sounds weird GYAHAHAAAAA)

jeebus. time to go find them now.
bye minions!

hi yvonne

like the title says... hi yvonne! :)

W45T3

i just spent an hour customizing my blog look, and it's still too hard on the eye i think.

but il lstop for today because ive spent long enough on the blog look

u guys better enjoy it now b4 it get's changed again

anyways, like the pic anyway? its so nice. only time globalization looks nice on the outside GYAHAHAHA

and hi shelley! iunno felt like saying hi to shelley, anyone else want a hi? ill say hi to u next time. yea? :{D

it's a greeatt honour trust me!

life...insurance

U've got to watch this til the end

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ue-8pEcXoVI&feature=g-high-f

It's kinda sad.. but then u get to the ending and it's like LOL!

WOKHAD

I SUDDENLY FELT A SURGE OF "WORK HARD" FEELING

FUUUARR. AND SO I WILL NOW ANNOUNCE:

I, JOOLIA ZOO WOOIE WILL NOW STOP BLUDGING..

for the next 3 hours. LOL the feeling is quite da fleeting

okay.

let me emphasize, u guys all know already, but lemme still emphasize how good warmth feels.

OK imma preach about warmth to y'all

ok i once went into the shower, and there was no warm water and i was really cold and uncomfortable.

i wake up in the morning, and i have to get dressed.. no warmth!

wearing my school uniform = no warmth unless i add 2 layers of clothing underneath.

end note: warmth is great!

OHHHH. ALSO I MUST MENTION THIS. today i tied my hair in a high pony tail. so much controversy. johnny said it looked more mature. alex, abira and nancy didnt even recognize me from the back but when they did, they said i looked more mature/girly.

so influenced by such comments, i tied my pony tail a bit lower for the rest of day so i could be identifiable.

what it feels.

breeding blush
cheeks warm
cosy clutch of jersey
eyes close
sleep.

how it feels to be warmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm sometimes.
fragmentation meant to make it sound nice!

closecall

i just remembered this,

a month ago, i did my modern history speech

afterwards, mr f3d3r1K0 would talk to you by youself, give feedback on your speech and give your mark and maybe ask questions.

so i did the Battle of Leyte Gulf. and I did my research and stuff but during my feedback time, I remember Mr F3d asking so "you should've talked more about the boats were sunk.. so why did they sink the boats" can't remember exactly... something like that.

 i remember i didn't know the answer at all. and i was thought criiaappp.

so i said " I thought i might go out of the time range so i didn't talk about it"

fed: *keeps looking at me*

Me: "Yeah so i decided to only mention a bit of it rather than going into a lot of detail and i thought the other stuff i discussed were way more important such as __ __ __ __ _ "

fed: "ah ok next time go into more detail.. blabalhbalh heres ur mark"

ZOMG. OH PRAY THE HEAVENSSS!! *bows down*

my modhist plans

tommorow i have japanese ext and modern history. i am pretty screwed but i hope it works out

for mod which comes first, i got duh plan!

WWI section is multiple choice and comprehension stuff ---> WING!
GERMANY ESSAY section: i think its about Nazi's in power or Nazi Foreign Policy so ill study one of those, this is a kind of educated wild guess
ALBERT SPEER ESSAY 1: is a recount of his life so ill just remember some pointers about his life
ALBERT SPEER ESSAY 2: im guessing its going to be if speer is a "good nazi" so ill cram sum random info on that
CONFLICT IN PACIFIC ESSAY: class has a hunch its about beginnings of the war. so cram dat shiz as well..

now that ive typed it all out it seems easier!

and ill study for extension jap in the 50 minute interval between mod and ext jap test

HAHAHAHA... crap

I COLOUR

b4 my liu xiang post,

i would like to tell you guys something (jenny/emily know this so coolies)

IT IS ABOUT EYE COLOUR WOO
i thought i should make a post about it so i can immortalize this train of thought.

OK really light coloured eyes, esp. light blue/crystal clear blue/ etcetc/vibrant grey are sho deep! i find it hard to look at people with such light eyes because if you look them directly in the eye its kind of like looking into their soul.... which is probably ugly LOL JUST KIDDING, it just draws attention away from what they're saying.

well it's not like i can't look, ofc i can look directly into their eyes, it's just that when i do peer into their eyes when i talk, the black dot within the blueness/greyness etc kind black hole absorbs my attention so i can't concentrate LOL IT'S TRUE. and also when the colour is really light it feels like you're not looking at them, but looking INTO their eyes and seeing all dad eye fibre stuff.

but then again really dark brown eyes like most of the people reading my blog probably, are easier to look AT, but serve as blockades, because it kind of just blocks the light out and all u see is a blackish patch so you can't really visually connect with them.

so i think people should strike a balance with light and dark eyes and have medium coloured eyes! (like u strike a balance between the local abd global worlds BAHAAHHA good memories)

..yeah now everyone go change their eye colour LOL

olympians

USAIN BOLT IS SO COOOL
not only is he world no.1 sprinter, he's so cool!

EVERYONE DUZ THE USAIN BOLT POSE WHEN HE DOES IT WOO!
awsum!

HERE'S NUTHER ONE

CHYYYEAAHHH

and i feel really bad for the jamaican girl who's dreams got shattered, when she stumbled over a hurdle in the 100m preliminary race. she was one of the people who was expected to collect a meddal! ):

all four years of training... actually 8 years + because she also apparently made a mistake in the 2008 beijing olympics ... resulted in this! and it will probably be her last games, because she's thirty something years old +

i feel sad already! imagine her...

read more about her here:

http://sports.nationalpost.com/2012/08/06/london-2012-hurdles-brigitte-foster-hyltons-olympic-dream-ends-in-tears/

SINCE WHEN DID I BECOM A OLYMPIC PROMOTER!

THE WORLD

there is this cruise that begun in 2002, and it's been sailing over the world this whole time... yes even now...

so it's like a lifetime cruise, you practically stay on that boat 5 lyfe. or a big part of your life. it sounds amazing and cool here is the link

http://aboardtheworld.com/

probably only the really rich can afford!

but anyway, i don't understand enough about what the people do on the cruise... but!

the whole cruise things is like the epitome of "ignorance is bliss", feels as if though they're going around the world being all yaaayyy and smiles and dis is da life, and thats it. not a care about anything else.

just a bit mebbe? or maybe im just jelly? 8D

utube stupidity

FUs men are superior over any women at anytime whether it's smart, looks or showing our emotions. We have to work much, much harder than any women in this world. Women are the epitome of inferior because really.. they're just that. They can't prove to us men that they can do anymore more than what I said above. So ladies, go fuck off and start making me sandwiches!

HOLY MOLY!! KILL IT WITH FIREE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

NOW!

HOT NEW GOSSIP

TODAYYY ZOMG AROUND 2-7 pm HOOLY CRAPPP..


i slept!

in my parents bed!

sweet jesus...

and i woke up i the dark (no shizza)

and for ten seconds i had no idea what i was doing or where i was or who i was no kidding

in simpler terms, i was confused

then i tried to remember what happened and what day it was and why i was here

and in a matter of ten seconds, at london olympic score-breaking speed, i made sense of my world.



BINGGG!
anyways me go dinner now byebeyBABY :)

3554Y5

essays, once u've remembered them, it doesn't feel like they're in your memory. because you can't recited the whole thing at once.

u guys get me right?

LOLMUM

LOL DIS IS HOW IT WENT:

"guess what mum"

-she keeps watching asian adult drama-

"...I HAVE A BOYFRIEND NOW HEHe" -big smile-

MUM Says:" HAAAAAAARHHHH?!" in shocked tone of voice

ME: "JUST KIDDING BAHAHAHAH"

-mum goes back to watching TV-

LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOLSADOLSADOLAS FUNNIEST THING EVA TODAY.

you know..

i did have 3 days to memorize 3 essays

but now i have... half a day!

its a mix of LOL and WHY?! and DIS SUX and NOT FUN!

anyway good luk guys, keep memorizing dem essays

DEM PEEPS

I also don't like how all these people see a child who has a disease, such as one with Progeria and if in honest truth obviously a bit deformed...

(If you don't know, there is this girl named Adalia Rose on FB, who has a million likes because someone posted a picture and said, like if you think she's pretty")

... and go, "oh she's the most beautiful girl in the world" and "she has the prettiest eyes ever <3" but then when they see some pic of a girl saying "you gotta look like this(pic of one direction) to get a girl like this(she points at herself)" and she's actually quite pretty, they say stuff like, "omg she has no boobs." or "you're so fat and ugly" "go die". DAFUQ?

or another scenario, there is a guy on FB who says "hey girls, did you know.. the smaller your boobs are the closer i can get to your heart" but all the comments are things like, "you're gay." SO WHAT?  wow ur so manly and cool calling someone gay. and other stuff like i quote directly "this guy is a stupid ugly piece of shit" and "Dirty fuckin squinty eyed bastard!!" or "wat a ugly faag wat type of a haircut is tht cant even open his eyes fkn ugly shithead"

and no im not showing sympathy coz i haf small boobs, just in case ur thinking that.

WHAT'S WRONG! does one have to be dying or injured to get sum love?!

anyway im not as enraged as yathink. byebye time for dinner : D yumm i smell tomartoes

READ THIS ON le fb

i saw this pic on face book and it said this:

"No one understands what I'm going through & why it's so hard for me so I'm just gonna shut up & put on that fake smile like I do everyday & listen to other people's problems because it;s not like anyone cares about me anyway, they just tell me to move on but they dont get it"

there were 2000 likes, DAHEK?
ok maybe i don't understand. but this persons is irritatingly pessimisstic.

no one understands? I'm just gonna shut up & put on that fake smile? it's not like anyone cares anyway?
WHAT'S THAT SUPPOSED TO MEAN?

just a note you peeps, i say "what's that supposed to mean?" a lot, when i can't put how i feel about what someone says clearly into words. but the general feel when i say that is "What you're saying is invalid, because of a really obvious reason but i can't tell you the reason, coz i don't know what it is right now, but it's  really dumb obvious reason!"

EG. some people say retarded things (imo mebbe not urs) such as "who are you to tell me BLABHALHA" .... i mean, what's that supposed to mean!!!

i lack  some mechanism in my head that changes head stuff LOL thoughts into words

oh deary me

i was reading through comments on my past essays right and miss st33ly steel steeeel wrote this
"oh dear- look at this. be proud of your work and take care please"
in response to my terrible conclusion for blade runner/franken essay.
 it was just ugly, fully of pen crossing stuff everywhere and illegibility.

AHAAHAH