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AYAYAYA!!! I remember I had to do a graduation post, but uh the time has passed so I shall spurt out things little by little that pop into my head

ah procrastination + loonngg time = ceebs mood

OK first to all the people who i have talkde to (everyone in the grade even if it's just one sentence) and who are my year, who aren't really in my classes, i can't say your are loved and special because i don't know you enuf but but but!! u r unique because it was you guys who were my surrounding peeps and not another bunch of people who couldve become my surrounding peeps so ur unique in that way!

you have been peripherally acknowledged. and i just made that up. but i acknowledge and aprpeciate your peripheral existence. as in the people who exist around me and create a nice school air and thank yo 4 dat! and u guys r special but choice and circumstance didn't make us meet!
i hope i didn't sound bitchalicious there. but in lay mans terms: YES I DO LIKE U GUYS.

also b4 i forget i would like to add that high school year 7-12 feels like a slab of time that has stopped. like no real progress, you just kind of dwell in this halted space of time, or time of space you get what i mean!!!

ah feel like dinner now LOL POST LATERZ!

TOOOODLYDOOOO I LUF YOOO! LOL well that was random

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hello.

it's been a while!!!

and i have now 9 followers. latest one is not jane.. it is patrickelmer or something?! he's blogs are all in german so i do not know what he is doing here but uhh WELCOME!!! :D

UPDATE:
1. i am still deciding on my uni course
2. i am watching a bit of anime
3. i am doing some hsc study

typical stuff, this blog will be pretty inactive imo unless some awesoem thought pops into my head.

feelings right now: my essays suck! SUCK SUCK SUCK BIG TIME. SUPER ASS BIG TIME. and i dont knwo what to do. and OMG maths takes aages to do and i don't even touch mod and jap. ayar what to do what do do

gotttaa

leeeeeaaafffttt

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gg aaaa  mmmmm eeeeeeeee!

im jsut trying to make it seem like my post is longer haha!

anyway cya next time!

i is envious

the thing about when you get older is yo usee all the people younger than you who have accomplished way more, and u can't help but get a little ittle wittle shittle bit envious haha

and the things is, if you are young, you don't really care because you're thinking about all the things u accomplish when you're a bit older but then you become older and you realize jjust what you haven't accomplished. you get me? some deep-seated envy right there.

anyway today had some delish food with mah harry tutor homies: bonita gu, daniel he, jono yap and sally liang. very warm and family like 8)

we ate at this restaraunt (italian?) and had gourmet pizza and pasta and nutella pizza for dessert! AH ddeeeliiisshhyasss

hope i see them again soon.

everything

I will post about graduation late! PROCRASTINATION IS BAK!

and if ur wondering what im doing now. im reading through all the course booklets so i can apply for uac. ahh you know... anything + law automatically raises the atar to about 99.7 HOOLY CRAP. ooh criminal law soudns nice.

oh yeah and

this crazy course something along the lines of bachelor or economics medicine and surgery (in arts and social sciences) is 99.95 i don't want to do it (couldn't do it if i tried anyway) anyway, duuuude i swear maybe one person will turn up to that course

... crazy stuff. ill just stick to the stuff between 95-99.

so many stories of people

OK anuther thing. today i was at st johns and this woman i don't know how old she was but she had worked as a nurse for 50 years. anyway, she came in to talk to us. she looked 50 but!

anyways when she was yougn and worked as a nurse, she would write things beneath her white frilly apron, and sometimes young hansome lads would give her their number and she would write them beneath her apron.

anyway once that happened, and she forgot about it washed ther laundry and the numbers faded off the apron. and she said, "i couldve married a millionare!" ok that made we weirdly saddened

ah anyway she also back in the day she had the traditional role of women. for example she would wash the dishes, take care of domestic work. but she got bored so she began this "job" (if it is one) of making fake woudns and stuff and she would work at prisons and festivals and casualty simulations. and it all started because she became bored at home all day.

yeah she's pretty badass, and hilariously blunt, he once told a black dude in a prison that she'd have to paint the the fake wounds with black paint because he's black.ALSO LOL she once said she trimmed a guys beard so she could use it on a guy who was quite hairy so the fake wounds wouldn't leave a bare patch of skin when stuck on.

she's such a nice and kind woman. i admire her calmness and how even though this job of hers is quite ____ (can't find the word!!) she puts so much effort into it, loves what she does. coz when you care and value the thing you do, others will also YEyEAH?

also she stores fake blood in her fridge and she said that we'd all ahve an heart attack if we went to her house because of all these fake amputated things she has at home.

she a cool woman!

imma prufrock

applying through UAC is the hardest thing ever, everything sounds so good.

everytime i i think of doing something i feel like im missing out on the stuff im not choosing. happens all the time in life.

eg. there are two exhibitions, i decided to go into Exhibition A but then these people walk out of Ex B saying "ZOMG SO GOOD" i walk into ex B and come out and it was good but people walk out of Ex A going "FUAR that was the best" and i think.. "I MISSED OUT DAMMIT"

i wish i had infinite lives, actually maybe not. but if i could somehow split myself up and walk diff pathways. actually sometimes i wish i would be daring enough to go "SCREW IT ALL" and choose something random like agricultural economics and see how it goes.

but something tells me that's a bad idea. i mean deigan once said, "know your destination" and dont try to "float about in the sea" and see where it takes you.

what should i choose, and which is the best pathway?! are all pathways good?! HELP!

im such a i-dont-wanna-miss-out-on-anything-fun person. imma fish. a cell-fish coz im self-ish! shellfish?

also did i ever say i regret not continuing VA in junior years?

ago

i just read something of mine in year 7 i wrote

"she cried, her tears were like a waterfall and not a leaky tap"
WOWWW WELL WASN'T I POETIC LOL

and also found something i wrote ages ago aaages ago when i was 5 probably.

i get so giddy everytime i uncover some random sheet of paper wedged somewhere with something ive written aaaages ago!

i suddenly wanna read my kindy stuff. can't remember those days, i hope my parents haven't got rid of them. i also want to see my childhood photo albums coz they're always interesting!

anyways here is my childhood written stuff! word for word letter for letter

"yestoday we went to syedney tower ti was the hiyst place it taked 15 minite to go :) there we went to a telescope i saw the river then we went down we went to a movie we saw all the things to go on we went to a cave and a little man story there. were four and the airiplane, that was fun at the crockedilol, we went in we went out to kfc i ate potato yum and salad coco chicken that all my sister had a stamich ake i was very cold i told my mum put on the jaket thats all"

ill upload a pic next time maybe!

inb4 someone telling me that i still type like a five year old bahahah