SHOUT OUT TO EMILY
I dont purposely spell things wrong1!!!!
i just don't intend to spell super correctly, aka i type without going back to read, i do not consciously make an effort to spell badly so HA! in ur bfs face LOL JKJK
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hi emily 8) i love you..
i mean
ILYBBYGRL4lyf5evaaaaa! xoxoxoxoxo
Monday, June 10, 2013
Tuesday, May 21, 2013
Recount of todayz day
I seem to never recount my day and I'll tell you why
It's because I haven't been doing anything out there
So maybe im going to do something out there soon
to stir some shitttz up a little.
Right now everyything is so mediocre, like i swear the only thing worthy of mention
is the fact, me and this shy-ish girl in philosophy tutorial shared a moment together.
Like one of us said something and we both genuinely laughed LOL
is that sad? HAHA FAROUTT
and seein ting in philo was niceeeeeee and i use the word nice because it's such an ordinary, daily sort of sweetness.
and i was tutoring a kid in english standard today, i was like maintain my mature authority and then i bursted out laughing at my own hilarious creative writing ideas and i couldn't stop. but my student gave me a forgiving stare so alls cool WHHEEE
and on a more morbid note that makes me wanna screaaamL
20 years jooliar, 20 years to be kewl (i hope i can interpret this when i come back to read it) deedub guys i am not terminally ill or anythingg 8)
It's because I haven't been doing anything out there
So maybe im going to do something out there soon
to stir some shitttz up a little.
Right now everyything is so mediocre, like i swear the only thing worthy of mention
is the fact, me and this shy-ish girl in philosophy tutorial shared a moment together.
Like one of us said something and we both genuinely laughed LOL
is that sad? HAHA FAROUTT
and seein ting in philo was niceeeeeee and i use the word nice because it's such an ordinary, daily sort of sweetness.
and i was tutoring a kid in english standard today, i was like maintain my mature authority and then i bursted out laughing at my own hilarious creative writing ideas and i couldn't stop. but my student gave me a forgiving stare so alls cool WHHEEE
and on a more morbid note that makes me wanna screaaamL
20 years jooliar, 20 years to be kewl (i hope i can interpret this when i come back to read it) deedub guys i am not terminally ill or anythingg 8)
Friday, May 17, 2013
Tunneling through
From what I know, tunnel vision has two definitions:
One of which is physical (wikipedia) : the loss of peripheral vision with retention of central vision, resulting in a constricted circular tunnel-like field of vision
One of which is metaphorical (urban dictionary): Limited vision, as in seeing only your own point of view
(sources aren't very reliable but you get da jist.)
Anyway , I was just thinking, don't we have the massive-est tunnel vision ever. I was sitting at the back of the train and staring at the view of the seats and I could only manage to visually reach out to the blurry view outside the windows.
Most of this is unsupported evidence (as i have learnt in uni LOL) but the only reason we don't feel trapped with our "tunnel vision" is because we have thoughts and imagination that take us to other fantasy places and subconsciously construct the world around us so we don't freak out about our surroundings (eg. we know if we walk outside our house, there is going to be the porch). I think im trying to articulate what I feel now. For example, although within my field of vision is only a freaking computer screen right now, my thoughts are what set me "Free" and don't make me feel trapped LOL freak this sounds so corny but you get me yah?
the more I realise these obvious kind of things, the more existential I feel, the more weird it feels because I feel like realizing these little things allow me to see the bigger picture of (something). Since a lot of the time, "reality" is grasped with sight, our tunnelly vision, much like a film reel, only plays a tiny bit of the picture(and our thoughts only make up a portion of the out-side the tunnelly vision). That is why (if i recall correctly) the red bull guy who jumped from 60km away from earth felt the immensity of the earth/"reality" and his own insignificance, and human frailty and blah etc. because in his tunnelly vision, he saw half the earth.
which brings me back to the same ole question, is there a better way to get a hold on reality? a way that I don't just take in what I see in front of me and the in-front-of-me view when I turn 180 degrees but to "See" the whole earth in action/everyone's lives at once, I guess id have to be omniscient. Also, if i close my eyes I can't mentally imagine another way to ground myself to reality, how do blind people do it, what the heck do they do.
Another point I wanted to make is that within our limited visual frame, this may be obvious but I want to look at this from a visual perspective, that who ever enters it most are probably the people who have the most significance in your life which is kind of no shit because if you are close to someone chances are you spend time with them and visually "see" them more. But maybe this can also be attributed to the fact that being present/in the vicinity of someone you don't know can make them feel closer to you.
This doesn't have to occur visually though, I mean, who ever enters your circle of mental awareness circle, such as those who you can't visually see but are within close proximity of yourself can also be close people.
Okay im not quite sure where im going here but I just wanted to point out a few thought that i have conjured up in my little brain, eeeeeenjoy da brain foood.
One of which is physical (wikipedia) : the loss of peripheral vision with retention of central vision, resulting in a constricted circular tunnel-like field of vision
One of which is metaphorical (urban dictionary): Limited vision, as in seeing only your own point of view
(sources aren't very reliable but you get da jist.)
Anyway , I was just thinking, don't we have the massive-est tunnel vision ever. I was sitting at the back of the train and staring at the view of the seats and I could only manage to visually reach out to the blurry view outside the windows.
Most of this is unsupported evidence (as i have learnt in uni LOL) but the only reason we don't feel trapped with our "tunnel vision" is because we have thoughts and imagination that take us to other fantasy places and subconsciously construct the world around us so we don't freak out about our surroundings (eg. we know if we walk outside our house, there is going to be the porch). I think im trying to articulate what I feel now. For example, although within my field of vision is only a freaking computer screen right now, my thoughts are what set me "Free" and don't make me feel trapped LOL freak this sounds so corny but you get me yah?
the more I realise these obvious kind of things, the more existential I feel, the more weird it feels because I feel like realizing these little things allow me to see the bigger picture of (something). Since a lot of the time, "reality" is grasped with sight, our tunnelly vision, much like a film reel, only plays a tiny bit of the picture(and our thoughts only make up a portion of the out-side the tunnelly vision). That is why (if i recall correctly) the red bull guy who jumped from 60km away from earth felt the immensity of the earth/"reality" and his own insignificance, and human frailty and blah etc. because in his tunnelly vision, he saw half the earth.
which brings me back to the same ole question, is there a better way to get a hold on reality? a way that I don't just take in what I see in front of me and the in-front-of-me view when I turn 180 degrees but to "See" the whole earth in action/everyone's lives at once, I guess id have to be omniscient. Also, if i close my eyes I can't mentally imagine another way to ground myself to reality, how do blind people do it, what the heck do they do.
Another point I wanted to make is that within our limited visual frame, this may be obvious but I want to look at this from a visual perspective, that who ever enters it most are probably the people who have the most significance in your life which is kind of no shit because if you are close to someone chances are you spend time with them and visually "see" them more. But maybe this can also be attributed to the fact that being present/in the vicinity of someone you don't know can make them feel closer to you.
This doesn't have to occur visually though, I mean, who ever enters your circle of mental awareness circle, such as those who you can't visually see but are within close proximity of yourself can also be close people.
Okay im not quite sure where im going here but I just wanted to point out a few thought that i have conjured up in my little brain, eeeeeenjoy da brain foood.
Monday, May 13, 2013
spacesong
According to vsauce:
Apparently when we launched some sort of spaceship/shuttle(?) into outer space in some sort of vague hope that aliens would discover it we sent along this song
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dzd9Wa3WoTw
If you guys want to know more about it google golden disk alien song or something, I forgot it was aaages ago!
But still the choice of song astounds, mesmerizes and confuses me. I don't really understand the song, as in when I listen to it I'm not sure what to feel, although it kind of gives off a feeling of inner wailing, if that even counts as a feeelinnnngg
Apparently when we launched some sort of spaceship/shuttle(?) into outer space in some sort of vague hope that aliens would discover it we sent along this song
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dzd9Wa3WoTw
If you guys want to know more about it google golden disk alien song or something, I forgot it was aaages ago!
But still the choice of song astounds, mesmerizes and confuses me. I don't really understand the song, as in when I listen to it I'm not sure what to feel, although it kind of gives off a feeling of inner wailing, if that even counts as a feeelinnnngg
Friday, May 10, 2013
http://www.youtube.com/
love this damn quote, in jap coz it makes it sooooooo much coohler oh yea :-)
何もしなければ 何も起きない
love this damn quote, in jap coz it makes it sooooooo much coohler oh yea :-)
何もしなければ 何も起きない
Sunday, April 28, 2013
hupppppppp
you guys know those moments where your heart suddenly feels like it's beating out of your chest for a few seconds nad you gasp madly for breath. well i just did that, i realised that i was holding my breath for quite a long while subconciously
-HUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH_
BREEEAATHHEEINNNN BREATTHHEE OUUTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT
when i read back on what i typed i realised the first line osunds like a line out of some crappy romance book HAH!
-HUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH_
BREEEAATHHEEINNNN BREATTHHEE OUUTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT
when i read back on what i typed i realised the first line osunds like a line out of some crappy romance book HAH!
Thursday, April 25, 2013
the obvious that must be restated
people who aren't within temporal or spatial proximity to you don't seem to exist anymore
especially people who you've interacted minimally with, are forgotten and therefore don't exist aka the primary school canteen lady
you can only feel your best friends and family's existence quite strongly
especially if you don't have strong connections with family and friends, your own existence is felt so strongly that it takes up your "those who exist" thoughts and you feel like the only person in the world
im trying to get at is that if you want to be a strong existence/presence in someone's life, try to keep in touch, keep within close proximity
though that's pretty no shit stuff isn't it aye
especially people who you've interacted minimally with, are forgotten and therefore don't exist aka the primary school canteen lady
you can only feel your best friends and family's existence quite strongly
especially if you don't have strong connections with family and friends, your own existence is felt so strongly that it takes up your "those who exist" thoughts and you feel like the only person in the world
im trying to get at is that if you want to be a strong existence/presence in someone's life, try to keep in touch, keep within close proximity
though that's pretty no shit stuff isn't it aye
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