Tuesday, March 11, 2014
Thursday, January 2, 2014
meh-dio-cahhhh!!!!
a few people have posted their new years thoughts about lllife on facebook about a day ago, here is mine briefly
so the majority of posts on facebook have been talking about what a great year 2013 has been, what hope 2014 brings them and how great their friends have been, and that is good. It's what A LOT of people say,,,,, but it's those simple things-> friends, awesome experiences with friends etc. that bring the most happiness. and the only way to put it into words is through the cliched phrases "thank yo this thank yo that... look forward to 2013 booyah"
buuhhht what about the people who didnt think 2013 was great? maybe it didn't live up to their high or low expectations, what if 2013 was just the mediocre of the mediocre despite the little bits of joy that did occur during the year, aka, SHHHIIIIIITTTT. Shit meaning not the best, what nooww
i guess for the majority or minority of the people who felt 2013 was meh (not sure because nobody posts anything about 2013 being not so good) just remember that there is a section of people out there who feel the same. people who do acknolwedge and appreciate the things they take for granted, but felt like their year was the meh of the mehs. and i might be part of that group gahh
let's work together for this year to be better better better, lots to improve on!!! GOGOGOGOGOGO
Thursday, October 24, 2013
R A N T
Just then, she did it again.
I walked into the bathroom and low and behold i see the core bit of the toilet roll (what's it called?) with nothing around it except for one square piece of paper.
one square piece of paper!! D<
dude someone did this on purpose and I know who. because they were sooooo freaking lazy, they left one tiny piece of paper floating on the toilet roll core so they didn't have to get a new roll of toilet paper.
WHY?! is is soooo hard to go get a new toilet rolll
IS IT SO HARDDD!! FAROUT
how rude, so snneaaakkyyyyyyyyyyyyyy!!
mum or dad wouldnt do it so it's sis
i feel better now
ttyl getting new roll
I walked into the bathroom and low and behold i see the core bit of the toilet roll (what's it called?) with nothing around it except for one square piece of paper.
one square piece of paper!! D<
dude someone did this on purpose and I know who. because they were sooooo freaking lazy, they left one tiny piece of paper floating on the toilet roll core so they didn't have to get a new roll of toilet paper.
WHY?! is is soooo hard to go get a new toilet rolll
IS IT SO HARDDD!! FAROUT
how rude, so snneaaakkyyyyyyyyyyyyyy!!
mum or dad wouldnt do it so it's sis
i feel better now
ttyl getting new roll
Tuesday, October 1, 2013
plantations of people
Dad and I were talking and suddenly we started talking about his dad's brothers etc, and we ended up drawing up a family tree, which was crayyyyy because his mother had many brothers and his dad had another 5-6 or so siblings and all went haywire.
Anyway, we ended up circling the names of all those who were still alive, (we didn't even know all their names) and crossing out those who were dead, and it gave me a sort of weird feeling, like a sense of loss.
and when i think about all these people dead and gone, death rings close to my ears, because they all have some sort of connection with me even if it's a weak one. Especially when my dad talks of his nephew he used to play with when they were 8, I feel like humanity is so completely alone, that once my dad passes away at some point, that young memory does too, and there are so many memories are dying right now locked away in the heads of people who never told their story. And yeah just so BLEAAAKK and SAAAAAAAAAAAAAD. like how much do we really know about anyone.
[Every single time I go visit those rural, agrarian, dull, dusty, units that my relatives older than my parents live, I get mixed feelings of warmth, death. And I feel disconnected yet at ease at the same time, like I'm a branch re-attaching itself to a core Zhu family trunk, if that made sense. I have never seen many relatives of mine, such the ones who are a few generations older than me, and even if I have, I probably forgot them looong ago because I visited them when I was at such as young age. When I picture meeting them again I feel nice LOL FAROUT that lack of vocab. It's belonging wooooooo] - ceebs fixing this para
When I ask you, who's in your family? consciously and subconsciously you would only think to your immediate family: dad, mum, brother, sister etc etc etc. and yourself obviously. I feel like this is a very self-centered pov, which is perfectly normal and there's nothing wrong/bad about that because I'm asking about you. But yeah, I think what I'm trying to get across is that we are connected to a whole bunch of people, younger or older that share similar blood. Better yet, we are positioned in a FIXED place on a huge family tree, so we HAVE TO belong, you ARE the daughter or son of your mother and father, and that's inescapable, you can't choose not to be.
YEAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH ANYWAY I'M DONE BAAIIII
*exits*
Anyway, we ended up circling the names of all those who were still alive, (we didn't even know all their names) and crossing out those who were dead, and it gave me a sort of weird feeling, like a sense of loss.
and when i think about all these people dead and gone, death rings close to my ears, because they all have some sort of connection with me even if it's a weak one. Especially when my dad talks of his nephew he used to play with when they were 8, I feel like humanity is so completely alone, that once my dad passes away at some point, that young memory does too, and there are so many memories are dying right now locked away in the heads of people who never told their story. And yeah just so BLEAAAKK and SAAAAAAAAAAAAAD. like how much do we really know about anyone.
[Every single time I go visit those rural, agrarian, dull, dusty, units that my relatives older than my parents live, I get mixed feelings of warmth, death. And I feel disconnected yet at ease at the same time, like I'm a branch re-attaching itself to a core Zhu family trunk, if that made sense. I have never seen many relatives of mine, such the ones who are a few generations older than me, and even if I have, I probably forgot them looong ago because I visited them when I was at such as young age. When I picture meeting them again I feel nice LOL FAROUT that lack of vocab. It's belonging wooooooo] - ceebs fixing this para
When I ask you, who's in your family? consciously and subconsciously you would only think to your immediate family: dad, mum, brother, sister etc etc etc. and yourself obviously. I feel like this is a very self-centered pov, which is perfectly normal and there's nothing wrong/bad about that because I'm asking about you. But yeah, I think what I'm trying to get across is that we are connected to a whole bunch of people, younger or older that share similar blood. Better yet, we are positioned in a FIXED place on a huge family tree, so we HAVE TO belong, you ARE the daughter or son of your mother and father, and that's inescapable, you can't choose not to be.
YEAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH ANYWAY I'M DONE BAAIIII
*exits*
Thursday, September 5, 2013
GOOD GRAMMAR POST
I just sadly realized that nothing happens until action is taken. I'm referencing this in regard to a particular thing. Sometimes I sit in a tutorial/lecture and I suddenly get an urge to talk to the person next to me, you know, the more people you get to know the better. So I build up courage inside of me, and my heart starts beating so freaking hard and then my stupid brain decides to inundate itself with stupid thoughts, which stop me from doing the thing that could have been done by simply quickly acting upon my instincts.
Which lead me to realise that if you don't DO, or ACT, your thoughts may as well not have existed. Basically, two people may be sitting in a lecture theatre. One person doesn't think much, and the other person builds up half their courage to talk to the person sitting next to them but then gives in. Internally, something may have changed, but the reality is, nothing has changed.
It is only when you ACT, that people will begin to get to know you, and I know this is kind of no shit but I think that talking specifically about this would make who ever reads this more inspired to act. Because it is only through action, that other people can even begin to understand who you are.
Ok simple example to make clear what I'm trying to say. Let's say you're sitting on a train full of silent people. Now, you probably subconsciously think that they're uninteresting/boring people, and just like sheep, they're probably super ordinary, not unique, and don't have deep thoughts. Until one person starts randomly talking to you about their amazing life.
SEE... because that person physically acted by talking to you, they suddenly aren't a sheep in a flock. LOL BEST EXAMPLE.
Also,
Even if you used to only build up 10% courage to talk to a random, and now you can build up to 90% courage, in a sense, you have changed nothing at all. There is only action and no action. Zero percent and a hundred percent. No in between. So next time you think of something, DO IT, because not doing it, is kind of like discrediting the existence of that thought, if that makes sense.
So in a way, those who are less action - inclined people are at a disadvantage sometimes.
Anyway it's obviously not easily done but good luck HAHA
Which lead me to realise that if you don't DO, or ACT, your thoughts may as well not have existed. Basically, two people may be sitting in a lecture theatre. One person doesn't think much, and the other person builds up half their courage to talk to the person sitting next to them but then gives in. Internally, something may have changed, but the reality is, nothing has changed.
It is only when you ACT, that people will begin to get to know you, and I know this is kind of no shit but I think that talking specifically about this would make who ever reads this more inspired to act. Because it is only through action, that other people can even begin to understand who you are.
Ok simple example to make clear what I'm trying to say. Let's say you're sitting on a train full of silent people. Now, you probably subconsciously think that they're uninteresting/boring people, and just like sheep, they're probably super ordinary, not unique, and don't have deep thoughts. Until one person starts randomly talking to you about their amazing life.
Also,
Even if you used to only build up 10% courage to talk to a random, and now you can build up to 90% courage, in a sense, you have changed nothing at all. There is only action and no action. Zero percent and a hundred percent. No in between. So next time you think of something, DO IT, because not doing it, is kind of like discrediting the existence of that thought, if that makes sense.
So in a way, those who are less action - inclined people are at a disadvantage sometimes.
Anyway it's obviously not easily done but good luck HAHA
Thursday, August 29, 2013
ANGRY
My sister's first words to me when she came home were:
"yes, go lock yourself up in a room, i don't want to see your face."
DAFUQ, this ain't even a joke. and that isn't the first time either.
What in the hellsbells could even make a person say that after just seeing their sister, sure I may be annoying sometimes but it's not like I've done anything to her in the past fews days or even today. I just don't get how words like that could come out of nowhere. and that's the thing, because words just don't come out of nowhere, there must be this intense hatred of my presence OR She's screwing with me,
ALSO, it's not even because she had a bad day at work
anyway
If I ask, she'd probably say oh because your annoying, because I have asked before.
"yes, go lock yourself up in a room, i don't want to see your face."
DAFUQ, this ain't even a joke. and that isn't the first time either.
What in the hellsbells could even make a person say that after just seeing their sister, sure I may be annoying sometimes but it's not like I've done anything to her in the past fews days or even today. I just don't get how words like that could come out of nowhere. and that's the thing, because words just don't come out of nowhere, there must be this intense hatred of my presence OR She's screwing with me,
ALSO, it's not even because she had a bad day at work
anyway
If I ask, she'd probably say oh because your annoying, because I have asked before.
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