BELONGINGS

OK i slept like 1 hour for 2u english exam so wen i came home today i napped for like um LOL embarasing to say but like 4-5hours, its like 5 30 now. wut the and im still not really awake. but i forced myself up. LEMME TALK ABOUT ENGLISH EXAM. ok im so non-smart!!

DOOOOD, i didnt finish any paragraph of my essay cept conclusion, i was skipping around. OK INTRO. i wrote half and decided to continue with it later so i would have a better idea of what i was talking about by writing my body paragraphs. but i never went back, i was too slow. so i havent established a thesis really. like, and all my sentences were cut off.

I have 4 body paragraphs in total. i don't have endings for any of them, like the  ending sentence to sum everything up. my last body paragph trailed off 3/4 of the way because they were like pens down. BUT i wrote my conclusion fully. and it kind of answered the question.

the question was : the desire to belong is complex, how is it expressed through BLAHABALHA.
well i couldn't adapt my ideas properly because my ideas weren't about the desire to belong but rather. TO BELONG, THERE ARE BARRIERS. yeesh.

after exam this morning, i felt id do alright despite not completing da essay, but after typing this all out. SHIZ. i seriously hope i get 17  or 18+. PLEASEPLASEPLASE. LOL

and my  level of language deteriorated in the essay, started with nice eloquent, intelligible sentences, with nice verbs and adjectives and vocab in general. then turned out to be like "BECAUSE HE CAN'T BELONG TO PLACE HE CAN"T BELONG AND THAT MEANS NO CONTENTMENT"

OH MY GOSH.

JOOCY

if posible, i would like to enlarge the fruit, blueberry by 20 times, how succulent would the blueberry then BE YMUMIUMUUM!!

ENTERTAINMENT CANDDYY!

hope everything i wrote made sense

post dedicated to people who are still reading through blogs when exams are so close. (like myself LOL)

time of year where everyone's like "IM SO SCREWED" + an extra, "AND EVERYTHING ACTUALLY COUNTS NOW"

SO TRUE

GGGGGG.

my minds occupied with 80% naruto 20% exam shiz, so i haf no cool infos to share. maybe after exams when i feel calmer.

ALSO, i would like to mention that. i feel screwed. OH no shiz, but everyone is feeling screwed. even the seemingly prepared people. ok even though i haven't finished my 2u essay and i havnt started my 3u essay (it's not as bad as it sounds!) and math.. and jap, i reckon sum1 in the grade who has finished all thier essays and shiz feels worse off than me.

ANYWAYS. I AM INDEED more screwed than ever. sum1's gtta find a synonym for that word. also, people are telling me that im screwed. like ultra. and the people who have been telling me that aren't the fully prepared people, they're also the last minuters.

this + steeles condescending tone, "JULIA, ur the biggest procrastinaor ive ever met" + "JULIA, is this only half an essay?" (coz i handed in like 2 paragraphs lol and everyone else handed in like a fiull essay) MAKES ME REALIZE THAT MAYBE MY FEELIGNS OF SCREWEDNESS actually articulate my situation here.

THIS IS SEIROUS MAYNE. but i still feel calm ish.

PS: sometimes, i tihnk that if i post everything on this blog, ill run out of things to say in real life.
lOLOLOL

breeeefth

I have finally started my belonging essay.
and i! am proud of myself *proudface* im like fulyl smiling whilst doing ym essay, coz im so happy im progressing, i think my monitor is freaking out at my face.

TROLOOLOLOOLOL


and my post title is a cross between "brief" and "breathe"
it's conveyed meaning is, that this post is brief and that i should breathe, from any stress i hav 8D

TWISTED

http://www.jillstanek.com/miscarriage/cruel-hoax.html

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wolfs rain

today. the clouds were cool.

there were many layers

different shades

different overlaps

and they covered the whole sky

and there was depth to it.

so they were coolehz taboolehz