STOP COMPLAINGING. START WORKING YA USLESS FAILURE OF A DAUGHTER

CUT OFF

since im wasting time anyway, i might as well blog in jap.

kyou wa mudadato omounda. itsumo, watashiwa nandemonai wo shiteirudakedo shukudai to hokano koto wo benkyou ga oosugiruno.

HSC (lololololololol only part non jap peeps understnad) wa sukunai shuukan mae hajimarunode, mada bakadadadadadadadaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa - - - -- -

watashiwa naratta kotoba wa "koumon" dake. kanashii?

hai. kanashisugiru.

BYE. work sux.

maths is kirai

i am totemo stuffed. watashiwa KNEW that my warui study habits would carry on to jyuuni nensei.

I KNEW IT I KNEW IT I KNEW IT!!

last term, i was like: I WILL DO MY WORK. i will get my work and finish it on the day. and it wasn't just talk. it was talk that would be fulfilled. AND I KNEW i would do my work. andi did improve.
BUT ALSO, i knew rationally logically thatmy last minute habit that i have had for my entire life, couldn't be changed so easily, and that as much as i knew i would DO MY WORK ON TIME ON TIME ON TIME!!!. i knew that i wouldn't because of my life-long unchanged bad study behavior. and my prediction is correct.

mada last-minuter.

eff. my life is gnna turn out to be

UH OH

ms 5+331 LOL has told me through out the year that im the biggest procrastinator that she's even met.

and i was like oh shiz.

i thought that everyone was as procrastinaty as me but apparently not. like a teacher saying it gives it a whole new level of legitimacy UH OH

YESSSSS. NOOOOOOO!

THe cool news is when my family and i was at the checkout in Aldi, the counter guy told us to open our bags to chek if therez any stole ngood. s

o we did and he saw sheets of paper and books and he's like "oh, homework i see" and then we laffed coz i think we both thought of the asian stereotype.

anyway suddenly he's like, "12 times 12" and im like "ONE FOUR FOUR" and then he's like "13 squared?" i woz like "ONE SIX NINE"

and he looks at my sister and says, "15 times 15" and my sis is like "twohundred and twenty five" and he looks back at me and says, "14 times 14" and im like "196" and then he's like "GOOD u know ur stuff" and im like LOLSAODLOASLDOLOL


AND GUESS WHAT?

AGES AGO I LOST MY PETER SKRZYNECKI BOOKLET OF POEMS + MY WRITTEN ANALYSIS IN IT FORM DA TEACHER.

SO PREVIOUSLY, I HAD TO COPY SOMEONE ELSES NOTES FROM THE TEACHER. YOU KNOW HOW MUCH STUFF THERE IS TO COPY.

AND NOW, IVE LSOT IT AGAIN. ARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRHGHGHGGHGHGHGH
 IMGNNA CRY SOME IMAGINARY TEARS NWO DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD;;DF;VFD:G:fdG:fdFDSAJONVDS

linky stuff

normality causes boredom, boredom is caused by fear. fear prevents interestingness which means ur life is constant and unchanging. WOOP. i think dat makes sense 8D

and i rather like dis quote, "Stop accepting things as they are, even if they suck."


in a different font to emphasize it ;]

):)

ZOMG THE MOMENT I FINISHED posting my last post, i didn't really like it, jeebus isn't the poster meant to like their posts.

whenever i read back at stuff I've written years ago, i always say to myself, "woah was i like that?" because you get a bad impression of yourself sometimes. But I've read over something I've written less than ten minutes ago, and I just don't feel satisfied with it, because I'm left with a retarded impression. in fact i reckon everything i write is very immature/naive.

end of story. )< im sad now LOL

strain of thought

i think your day is very much determined by urself.

if u wanna hava good day, i reckon u should be happy

because if ur happy, your "state of mind" is in sync with others. by this, i just mean, you can connect on the same emotional level and be happpy togetharr. coz if ur sad, chances r no ones gonna want to really talk to you(sum1 will ofc, out of kindness psst + friends that care) but i reckon they're not gonna really understand anything, they're just gnna be like "ooh everythings gnna be alrite..!!" whilst patting yo sadness incarnate on the back and thinking, "i wanna hve sum fun now instead"

i mean if ur sad, sure u get attention. burrt, due to everyones similar "happy-state-of-mind", they can't really understand u and they will get bored. (maybe thats just da evil me sumtimes. >D)

so just leave da sadness to urself, bottle it up and cry urself to sleep at night. LOL (jus kidding, iunno)

also, i reckon ur mood/state of mind can affect ur body language, even the tiniest movement oculd indicate repellence. rather than welcomence (and this is why my english sucks, i can never find the right word), and thats why we all should maintain a nice, comfortable and happy state of mind. 8)

i also believe when people read other peoples blogs, they shouldn't take what people say and make assumptions on that person. if someone makes an offensive post, they probably didn't mean to, or they did so out of their angry selves. so just be nonchalant bout it, subconciously judge them whilst conciously trying to understand that from their POV, they think they are doing the 'right' thing at the 'right' moment.

speaking of nonchalance. i also believe i have been nonchalant a lot lately. half this nonchalance is "I CEEBS" and the other half is i feel kinda emotionally reactionless. if dat makes sense. a long time ago, i walk down a corridor, i was full of excitement, zomg, is anyone gnna come from the other side? is it gnna be LOLawkward/funny? am i gnna engage in cool convos if i meet someone alogn the way?!. now i walk thru the school with normallifying-tinted glasses. everythings so normal.

im so familiar with my environment, that i feel meh bout everything. but u know what, the meh-ness of everything right now is self-caused. so it's my fault im feeling da mehness. because im being in a meh-state-of-mind, i eminate body language that shows my disinterestness which repells happy people. i think. HA

thats why change is good. and speaking of change (LOL im just going on and on!) i wanted to make a post on that a month ago, but all the stuff i wanted/needed to say just slipped away. so moral is: if u think of smth cool, type it down immed!

next post, i will articulate everything in proper grammar. coz this post's grammar, is rubbish.